Roman princess

Got to say I was a bit jealous at times and bored too but thank god the outfit and makeup was awesome and well, that you're there. && the fact that it got better after the event. Thanks for making it worthwhile for me, W.

♥

Tiada lagi

I give up!

I can't stop looking at it ah ah ah. Oh please please go away already! I didn't pay for nothing agagagagagagagagagagaga stresssss. Tonight is a stressful night. My room's a mess. Taufan apa? Hish.

Takutnya pasal esok.

I've a 3 o'clock appointment then another one at 4 then it's time to RUMMMBLEEEE (TUMMBLEEEE). I suppose I'm also pretty scared about the reactions I'm gonna get. Skeriiiiiii.

Ok I go now bye.

Shut up and leave.

Even they noticed. Benci.

I hate that statement. Because sadly there is some truth in it. Haih.

I sleep and wake up to this. I'd rather not wake up at all.

I feel so fucked up. Like someone just hit me on the face with a pang! and whoop reality strikes in front of you. Which is just greaaaaaaat. NOT.

What a day.

What a day.

The Empty Space Beside Me

I need you here with me.

But I know you will never come.

Greecian woman

I don't know what to expect from it but I can only pray for good things.

I'm nervous, excited and also a little scared of what the night holds for me.


Please let it be worth my while.

Solemn

Cut my tongue out and stab my heart.

Poke my eyes and break my bones.

Anything to make it right again. To make it up.

I died, and died again.

It kills me every time you're sad :(

Me and my big mouth.

You have no idea how I feel every time I see you. You haven't a clue. So don't you say crap that you mean nothing and all that.

Every time you bleed, I do too.

I'm sorry :(

Injustice.

When you attack black people, they call it racism. When you attack Jewish people, they call it anti-semetism. When you attack women, they call it sexism. When you attack homosexuality, they call it intolerance. When you attack a country, they call it treason. When you attack a religious sect, they call it hate. But when they attack Prophet Mohammed, they call it freedom of speech?


What the hell is this?


Spread the word.

Secret letters

Dear W,

I tell myself everyday there is no hope, and yet I keep on hoping, secretly, or not-so-secretly. I will always tell myself that, time and time again, because it's a fool's dream. Fool's hope.

Life is not fair, for me. How is it for you?

It seems like such a long time since I was happy and smiling. One simple moment and it was gone, like the wind.

I need to be strong. I can turn to stone. I can do that.

I wish you were here. I need you.

But I know you will never come.


-me.

The Trip Downtown

Coming to your defense is second nature for me, just as it is for me to come and see you play. That's what I said when I was asked why I was there. And I guess I can't stand such nonsense as that act, and I'm saying this with no envy at all. It's just one of those things I suppose, you know?

Old habits die hard huh?

Practice more on your skills again lah, and I'm sure everything will be okay. I know you can do it, I've seen you do it.

The downhill bit scratch aside, today has been a pretty good day, and I like it.



Thanks :)



Love,
me.

Rawsyad ♥

Baby boy is already 5 months old! Rindu sangat budak comel ni!

OW.

Two great Mondays in a row; I'll always remember.

Big fat hugs for everyone.

Thank you.

Pound signs

#1 I had a fabulous time with each and everyone of you.

#2 I wish we met sooner, else I would have answered all of your questions with glee. But even now I do, only with a tinge of -- don't quite know the word for it.

#3 I am so happy to see you again. It has been such a long time.

#4 I still write to you, for you. Sometimes there are intervals in between, sometimes there are none.

#5 I still do, too. But I'm sure you already know that.

#6 Thank you for making it even more memorable than it already is.

Love,

me.

I Wrote This For You

I just love these so so very much :') :'(

01 02 03 04 05 06 07 08 09 10 11 12 13 14 15 16

These are the very best, yet.


Remember?

There will be blood

Sometimes I wish I could strangle you. Or take your hands and chop them off and feed them to the dogs.

You piss me off to no end.

Piece of fuck.

Dusk till dawn

I love it when people just know what to reply to my Facebook statuses. It's a delight to read what others have to say, when they insert sentences and secrets of their own.

It one of the little things I enjoy, that's why.

On a different note, bring on the quiz Madam!

Update: Ugh dapat 13 je. Careless mistakes!

Tuesdays with Me

I had a good weekend with family and a great Monday, which rarely happens, so I'm feeling good today. Must be last night's events, I had a good time :)

Thank you for returning. Your absence were dearly missed.


Love,
me.

Don't stop believing.

Dear H,

Please learn to be content. Please learn to accept things as they are - that not everything, well basically almost nothing, will go your way. Please learn to adapt quickly and be stronger for the trying times that may come, which I'm pretty sure, will be plenty. Please learn to stop hoping and stop counting the days, hours, minutes, seconds every time you're alone in your room. Please learn to stop thinking about those things too, you must try, you have to - it is the only way.

Please find a different way to channel your emotions. Stop being so angry. Stop being so sad. Embrace the life and love around you and be happy. You deserve at least that. Trust in God, for I'm sure He will not fail you. H, you mean so much to me and I could not bear seeing you this way. So please, please stop beating yourself up like this.

I know you are better than this. You are strong, capable of handling yourself. Do not succumb to your emotions, to the woes around you. Be strong, as you were, as I've always known you. It's probably the hardest thing you will ever have to do but you must try. You have to.

Whatever happens, always remember that you will always have your loved ones around you. Don't ever give up. Someday, everything will be okay.

Love,
me.

Achtung.

There will be some changes soon. Change is good, sometimes, so I hope this one is too.

I'll be seeing you soon.


Love,
me.

I am the sea

I cannot hold these feelings in any longer.

I need to let it out.

I need to speak these thoughts.

So much to give and no one to give it to.

I will call you tonight.

Wait for me.

I miss you.

Fallen

It seems to be the pattern now. Ever since it happened.

Even then I wasn't the first to know what was about to befall on me - the tragic incident of the century, my century.

I am bitter and reality sucks.

Fact

When I said I love you,

I meant every word.

-

Rindu :(

Sigh.

Objection

Today was a fairly good day if you asked me, but ah, I don't think I want to talk about it because all of the sudden I am reminded of something sad, so I want to take a moment and just be sad about it.

It's like nothing, nothing could please me enough to make me forget what happened four months ago. Nothing could erase it completely, or most of it, for what it's worth. Nothing.

Sigh. Oh well, see you in a few days.