Happy Birthday Rawsyad

Happy birthday to my favourite handsome baby boy! You're 2 now sayang! Kaklong sayang awak sampai mati. Love you always.

Melted.

I miss my friends so bad.

Quick Post

So right now I'm at a cyber cafe besides my boyfriend while he plays Dota. Am I cool or what? Hahaha.

Challenges.

Despite his crazy ex wanting to tear us apart, making stories to S's brothers and having them turn against me, attacking in that way, going to R's family and say bad things about him - we are still sticking together. Everyone's been supportive and supports us. Our relationship. Even Kak Zairin. It's such a small world though, sadly. The ex knows Shafiq and his brothers, Miza and her sister and... who else? It's not so cool cause I'm sure stories have already spread to their ears.

But I will not falter. I will not relent. I love this man. He is good to me. No scratch that. He is great to me.

He's lovely and as for me, I'm in love.

RM.

I'm happy and in love. My boyfriend is crazy sengal comel gedik mengada manja gentlemen sopan santun well-mannered loving baik hati funny great and lovely.

Third time's the charm? Lets hope so. Here's to us, bby.

News flash

So I've a boyfriend. How cool is that? Haha. Dah lama sangat single, tak biasa pun ada. Surprise surprise. Exams are nearer. At Curve with love right now. Doing work because I just remembered I have to. Anyhow. That's that.

You're being such a bitch and I don't even know you. That's saying something. Why? Because dan dan la kau dua orang nak kawan kawan semula and get in touch with each other. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU BOTH. Dah lama dah aku cakap macam ni kat kau, since kau dengan jalang tu lagi tapi since now you wanna be friends out the blue and what not, then here's a double FUCK YOU. You betjchhhhhesssss. EFFF YOUUU BOTH BLOODY FUCKING BASTARDS. Setan dua dua so biar lah. Whatever lah buat sakit hati je pikir.

Anyways. I'm sleepy. Tapi kena buat kerja.

Bye.

It's official. 24 Nov 2011.

Today begins a new chapter. Embrace it, cherish it and be happy. Thank you love.

Confession is always weakness. The grave soul keeps its own secrets, and takes its own punishment in silence.

I enjoy your company. Thanks :)

Stuff.

There are so many things I want to say but I haven't got the time. Seriously, I do miss this space. I miss the times when I get to write whatever I please without filtering so much. Now I have filter things till there's really not much left to talk about it's boringggggg.

Anyhoo. On to other things.

I met up with E last week and felt so good. So happy to be spending time with her again. I don't know about you but I don't have problems with her so it's all good. Just because some of you do not fancy her does not mean I have to stop being friends with her. Look, I know the drill and it's okay if I end up caring more... I always do. I always care more about my friends. I always value friendships more than they do. I know that. I've accepted that.

Being bitter about it and cutting ties won't make things better. So get over it and grow up. Don't expect too much from people and just cherish whatever you have. Whatever you get.

Moving on. I have an overdue assignment... supposed to send it last Friday but I couldn't get it done so I'll try to send it this week. Wait wait. I have to send it this week. Haih. Leceh sungguh. I am so lazy because I'm doing this on my own and there's really no one to push me and my supervisor is dead boring I tell you so it's really really boring. Haih. I wonder what I will score for this thing zzzz teruk sangat.

I also have a number of books to read. Was thinking of reading one of 'em this coming Eid.

OH. & I have an announcement to make. I'll be getting a car! Soon! Hehe. Surprise surprise! Indeed! Finally! After all these years. I don't know how or what happened but they decided to give me one hehe. Apparently it was supposed to be a surprise - they planned on telling me after getting the car but Mum was too excited she spilled the beans and so it is. Still waiting for the car to arrive. Friends have told me that there's a one-month waiting list for that car, and they only ordered in about 12 days ago, so it'll be super awesome if the car people can find one unit by this Thursday...... which I am really hoping will happen.

I cannot believe I will finally get a car!

Oh just think how easy it will be to go to classes and back, to go out to warungs and have dinner and buy food and not wait for people to invite me out. To run errands without having to worry who needs to use the car and what not. Ah, I'm excited! Yes.

I forgot to tell you, I'm getting the new MyVi Extreme 1.5 in yellow. Hehe dad picked out the colour. I had mixed feelings at first because yellow's such a bold colour and I never pictured having a yellow car but I'm okay with the idea now. Besides, it's good enough that they wanted to give me a car in the first place so I'll just accept whatever's given.

I hardly update my tumblr too. Broadband's really slow and I don't go home often let alone get online at home. Maybe with the new car I can go home whenever I want if I get bored or miss them too much hehehe. Sounds like a plan.

G's coming back from New Zealand soon. Oh I cannot wait to see him. Need to cheer up my homeboy. I hope he's well. We'll go jalan jalan cari makan in my new bumblebee :P Haha..

On a different note, I'm quite flattered but I am in no mood to get into any commitments whatsoever. I like this freedom to roam about as I please, not that I'm letting loose and stuff, and see people and not have to worry about people's feelings. I hope you can respect. Thanks though.

Amani's birthday went well. She got her skates and we met the owner of the shop Sukeats, a really great guy, who helped us throughout the whole process. Very lazy to type it all down cause it's quite a long story of the awesome time we had getting those skates. Now I want to get a pair of my own, but something cheaper of course.

French classes are going good. I've ... or more like, girl and I have been postponing our meet for the psat 2 months or so now.... and I'm really hoping that after I get the car and everything's a wee bit calm we'll get to have a cuppa coffee or tea or something. It would be nice to meet her although I think I'm gonna be shy... or be shy if she's shy oops. So please japanese squirrel girl don't malu malu with me :) I'd like to see your cats though hehe.

Okay I've rambled quite a lot.

& btw ... I am so very much in love with Reid. It would be so cool if Reid is my boyfriend. So clever and adorable it can also be scary but ahhh I'll love him. Reid. Matthew Gray Gubler. I'll have both please. Hehehhee....

A bientot!

The Chemicals In Your Brain

And maybe something's missing in your mind. Maybe you don't work the same way everyone else does. Maybe you're just different. That would be good news.

(via I Wrote This For You)

your thai wolf girl.

today.

had a lovely day with two good friends walking about the place. here and there and everywhere. it was chilly. it was dark. it was sunny. filled with laughter. it was lovely. slept so little laughed so hard spoke so loud. vomitted. ate bad food. ate good food. ate ok food. whatever. big deal.

oh.

& i missed you today. but, it's okay. i'm okay. i'm okay. i'm okay. i hope you are.

takde angin takde ribut tiba tiba je... what to do what to do.

still, happy though.

I hate it when I miss you. It sucks. It really really suck.

Sigh.

:(

Some days are hard without you.

Today is that day.

Nak kemas dapur pun tak larat. Sedih. Nak tidur pun sedih. Nak nangis, haih penat dah la menangis.

Shit I hate being the firstborn. It sucks.

Silently.

It's unfair that you penalized me for every single detail yet you let them go easily. It's heartbreaking knowing that you look down upon me, think lowly of me, expect the worse from me and not an ounce proud of me in any bit.

Nothing could make me more upset than what you have shown, time and time again.

My heart is weeping.

The Negative Space

If you missed me saying it, I miss you.

(via I Wrote This For You)

Hi.

I have indeed lost my momentum to write. I haven't even read IWTFY for so long. Things have been dull at home. It's pretty much the same routine every day - wake up, send brother to the nursery, sleep, wash clothes, clean kitchen, take out trash, fold clothes, prepare for dinner or iftar - and repeat. Like I said, dull.

We hardly ever go out let alone have iftar outside. It's pretty mundane I tell you. I really need to get my drive back. Seriously.

I hope you've been well.

A late happy fasting and ramadan kareem wish to everyone!

The Reminders Still Take Me

Nothing is faster than the speed of thought. I can look at anything and think of you.

(via I Wrote This For You)

evade

maybe you shouldn't have told me those things and i shouldn't have said what i did too. because sometimes, it's better not knowing. because really, how do you un-know things? you can't. unless you forget. and only time, perhaps, only time can do that. make me forget. it's weird how i always let myself like that it's not even funny. i try and i try and i fail.

on a different note, i dreamt of morgan a couple days back. she told me she saw you. that's good, wish i could see you too. but that seems to be unlikely. maybe i'll get to see you some time soon. maybe.

which reminds me, i have an overdue call to make. tomorrow.

issues

if anything goes wrong and you're left wondering why, you have no one to blame but your pathetic self. i hate you for what you are.

your hand in mind.

that will be. for now. until i find something better to replace it with. although i must say, i was pretty happy to stumble upon this. it's perfect. a little bit similar to alias but different still. will look for more that could serve as a good header.

im too tired. reid and morgan would have to wait. good night.

sedetik lebih

i dont do this space justice. i dont feel like observing my spellings and capitals. not now. certain posts will be this way. some wont.

something went wrong along the way. thats why. listening to anuar zains sedetik lebih is bringing out the emotional side of me. only that now theres nothing, or no one to be emotional about or towards. but the song touched me anyhow.

theres a void in me somewhere. i want to get excited about things but really nothing excites me these days. not even my books and that is a bad sign. ok i lied. criminal minds does excites me.

im off to watch some now. later.

i miss those two the most :(

melted pot.

and then i hear your voice, i go back to square one.

Jargon

Hi. So I said I would be writing again. I forgot. There's just plenty of other things else I've lost the momentum. I suppose it's pretty much the latter. There are reasons of course. Reasons like not wanting to be too transparent. Or reasons like not wanting a certain party to read my posts etc. etc.

But I will keep writing and not so much in an orderly fashion, no. Been trying to change the look of this blog but in vain. I just couldn't get it to be the way I want it to be. I fancy the girl whose friends with the squirrels blog. God I need a new nickname for her or maybe just call her by her name. But I kind of like the anonymity.

At this point, I am still with no job, at home doing chores mending the nets (no) and so forth. Classes have started and I enjoyed in very much. Oh and my nose is runny. My god I swear if I could I'd vacuum this darn nose if I have to.

Other than that, I've got two bubs buggin me from time to time but that is contained. Sorry for being cold but no, not my cuppa tea.

There's a pain in my back. & my nose is leaking like I don't even hafta blow it. Hey ho hey ho.

The World In The Mirror

I am not afraid of you. There's nothing you can do to me that hasn't already been done before.

(via I Wrote This For You)

“There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just mean you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.”

— Laurell K. Hamilton (Incubus Dreams)

Took this from Alia.

I really miss this space! Helloooo youuuuuuuuuuuuu <3

I'm making a comeback! Hahaha. Well, I promise to write again. Perhaps not as often as I used to, but I'll try to be consistent. I've been missing for almost two months now!

Maybe it was because there were so many things bugging me and I didn't want to keep writing sad stuff. I sound like a lame sad person every time I do. Which I am, partly :P Haha.

I'll be back soon. As for now, I want to enjoy the few days left I have before school ends :)

Catch you loves later! (&& so many blogs to catch up on! gulp! xoxo)

Love,

me.

This is taking a toll on me.

I've been having headaches for six days in a row now. It's been going on and off but it's dreadful nonetheless. Bugger.

I've lost touch really.

I thought I could rest but really I'm only became even more lethargic.

In control

because I'll look for you
want to talk to you

because I'll end up missing you too much.

because I'll be the one who misses you.
I am always the one who misses you.
hardly the opposite.

this feeling is inevitable and sometimes, I don't quite like it.

Hope you're well.

I've been busy. But that doesn't mean that I forgot about you.

I wonder, do you ever miss me?

I'll tell you stories, when the time is right. As for now, my book is waiting for me. I have a couple of lovely books and a ton of chores to occupy me this holiday.

Talk to you soon, my dear.

Only God Knows Why

This feeling in my heart.
This is not good.

No.

The Water Is On Fire

I'm not scared of never meeting you. I'm scared of having met you, and let you go.

(via I Wrote This For You)

D.

Why are you so hard to love? Hargh.

You brought everyone down. Shame on you. Shame on you.

Fact.

Kind of weird when Mum asks about S because there's really nothing much to tell anymore.

"Oh, we hardly talk anymore and he's busy with someone else. Like, yeah."

is all I can say. And then I go,

"Please don't ask about S again?"

I ran out of things to say. That is the truth, anyway.



Malas. (Nanti buat sakit hati).

??

Ouch. I don't know why, but that, kinda hurt a bit. Even though just a little, why does it still hurt?

Hargh Alyaa please, do not ponder on this. He's moved on. Let him be. Just let it be.

Hate this feeling. WHUTTTTTTTT.

Mantra

No one can break me.

No one can break me.

No one can break me.

I will not let anyone else break me!

I will not !!

I will not take shit from people anymore !!!

I will not break !!!!!!


I will not let anyone break me anymore. I will not fall. I will scrape my knees again. I will not take shit from people. I will not borrow anything from anyone. I will not ask for help. I will stand tall. Alone. Proud. Strong. I don't need you or your things. You can go fucking die and burn in hell.

March kick started with a very happy beginning but got worse as time passed.

I want you to burn in hell you flat chested cock sucking horse fucker! BURN IN FUCKING HELL. YOU AND ALL YOUR NYMPHS AND COLONY GO FUCKING DIE.

Beautiful Stranger

February has been full of emotions, ups and downs, smiles and frowns. It has showed me how to move forward, with words from the most unexpected sources and surprised me with something new which turned out to be both refreshing and comforting.

I found myself busy; with the pile of school work, midterms to be done and some wandering around with friends. Time was well spent with loved ones over countless drinks and multiple stories.

Thank you February, for your brute honesty, for your kindness, for the joy you brought and for the lessons you taught. Thank you for mending my heart.

You have been lovely. I'll see you again next year.

Scars.

Read 'em and weep.


Scars.

One.
If I could, I would nail these hands to the edges of stars.
I would sacrifice this body to the sky, hoping to resurrect as someone spiteful enough to not give a fuck about you.

Two.
Staple me to a cross.
Pierce my side with a broken promise and I will bleed all the crippled reasons why you deserve one more chance.

Three.
Your bed smells like the last thing I was really good at.

Four.
You want to know how I got these scars.
I ripped every last piece of you out of my smile.

Five.
I whispered you stardust.

Six.
I spoke you into sunflowers.

Seven.
I dipped my hands in forever, touched you infinity,
treated you as if you were the last molecule of oxygen inside of a gas chamber.

I was good to you.

Eight.
You want to know how I got these scars.
I swallowed my pride and then it clawed its way out of my mouth.

Nine.
I realized that I was never really your boyfriend.
I was just your fucking hype man.

Ten.
I hope your next boyfriend gets small pox.

Ten.
Yes, I said small pox.

Ten.
I hate you.
Ten.
I miss you.
Ten.
I love you.

It’s hard for me to count when I get emotional..

Ten.
I heard the 90% of human interaction is non-verbal, so..

—-

Ten.
If I could, I would tie your arms to a daydream and then auction you off to my fondest memories.

See, I wrote this poem in my own spinal fluid.
I put it on the backbone of a white flag so that before you read it, you already know that I’ve given up.
I’ll just keep you here, shackled to the most important chapter of my life story, pressed into the basement of my eyelids like liquid salvation, so I remember you beautiful, with amazing underneath your wings and an orchid smile.

You gorgeous earthquake.

You cracked hour glass with sand spilling from behind your ribs.

You wasted my time.

How dare you linger on my lips then kiss me like a stuttering apology with excuses stapled to the roof of your mouth.
I still remember you like a dream, tattooed to the inner walls of a long-term memory but some days,

I wonder if you existed at all.

And of course,

You want to know how I got these scars.

Fine.
I’ll tell you.

I got these scars the day that I fell in love with you. I landed face first.

- Rudy Francisco

Have fun.

Lucian

Because I suddenly woke up from my slumber and am trying to kill time before I fall asleep again. This song is sad yet lovely. Somehow I am attracted to sad songs heh. I guess I could just relate although many won't allow me to listen to it, fearing I might not break free. Ahaks, I'm fine lovelies. For the first time in many months, I can finally say I am. I am content :)

Adele - Someone Like You

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Good night. xx

Martin

Livin' la vida loca.

Live you life and be happy :)

Adkins

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

It is time. Time to heal, and be happy. We owe that much to ourselves.

William

I am so grateful for the existence of Skype. Thank god for Skype! It shall be my best friend from here on out. Video calls made easy hehe! I hope you're well, wearing enough layers of clothes, getting the right amount of sleep, eating properly and in the pink of health. Much love from Kuala Lumpur to you my darlings - Dublin, Melbourne and Auckland. I'll see you soon ♥

xx

Stephen

Sometimes you do things not because you like it, but because someone who was once (or still is) important to you used to do those things. You drink milk in the morning because they said they liked doing so, listen to certain songs and sing-a-long to it even though it's not exactly your favourite song in the world or go to the places they liked even though it's not your scene.

You emulate these actions because it reminds you of them, because somehow, deep down, you actually miss them.

James

I don't know what I'm feeling. The story seems to be coming out straight from a movie, or something like it. Don't play with fire cause you know you're gonna get burned, and you should know that better than anyone.

Maybe that's because I'm just nice like that. I'm just a good friend, you know. What can I say, I like making people happy like that. It gives me a sense of satisfaction, knowing I could make someone's day just by going the extra mile. I like seeing happy faces and speechless smiles to go with it. It makes me happy.

God works in mysterious ways. I'm still trying to figure where I fit in the picture. There's a number of possible paths I could take but I'm unsure if I should take it, if I want to. I shall instead look and see what happens and where this road will take me.

I wish I could see you both before you go but sadly I couldn't. Be safe my darlings, and be good to yourself. We'll meet again someday, when you get back. You will be missed.

John Denver

Two of my favourite people are leaving for Dublin and Melbourne on Saturday and Sunday, respectively. I want to send them both to the airport. I don't know when I'll be seeing them again.

So yes, dear God, please let that be possible. Amin.

The Trees

Sometimes you don't see what's right in front of you.

Sometimes you need the people around you to tell you what's right in front of you.

Listen.


(via I Wrote This For You)

Carlos

"Ubat tu pahit"



Indeed, it is. The truth hurts, but I guess it was just what I needed. It's okay, there's nothing I can't take, right? I've taken more shit from people than I can imagine.



But thank you, in all seriousness, thank you for being there. Thank you for the brute honesty. Thank you for your time and most of all, thank you for being wonderful.



I'll have your back(s) forever, always. You are loved <3

Alexander

The meanest thing you could possibly say to someone has already been said. The stupidest thing you could possibly do has already been done.

Driving in circles, in disappointments and in tears.

Christian

I hate how I'm feeling these past few days. I hate the things I find out, the things I see, the things I learn, the things that hurt me, the things I said, the things I feel - everything. I just hate these past few days. Harghhhh.

I thought I've hit rock bottom before. Hmm, guess I was wrong.

The Leftovers

I made myself from all the love you no longer wanted.


(via I Wrote This For You)

The Distance To Me

You've got a bad case of being over there. The only cure is being over here.


(via I Wrote This For You)

#20

And nothing compares to the joys I've had with you.

#26

Because ultimately, at the end of a long and tiring day, it is you that I want to come home to.

Arms and hands

Jake Gyllenhaal, Johnny Depp, Brad Pitt & .. W.

Especially W's. Because I like it ;)

Recurrence

There was a point in time when I named my titles of names, mainly masculine. I might just start once again. I kind of like it. It's nice, simple and straight, different. I used to name them after your aliases. Because I liked it, because I can.

February's coming soon. That might just be the new theme.

Till then.

Chart toppers

Different songs remind me of the different people in my life, the events that took place or the emotion that it evoked in me once upon a time or in some cases, still do. So I decided to write a post just on that, on some of the songs that remind me of the people around me and the events that took place.

Feeling very nostalgic tonight baby.

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#1 Git Fresh - Blow Me A Kiss
Diane, my ex room mate for a semester. She was the one who introduced me to this song and I was hooked. I remember singing it in S's car along with Wafa and Alan.

#2 Glenn Fredly - Januari
Break up song. Need I say more?

#3 Chris Brown - Forever
This song reminds me of Zhaf, of the time we took that ride back from Afi's place during Raya. It played and I remember being happy at that time, with my friends and that boy in my hand, right beside me. This song immortalized that moment forever, no pun intended. This was a long time back, back when Zhaf was still single, still with us and still here.

#4 Orson - No Tomorrow
I first heard this song at Nihmat from Haziq's Nokiaphone, while we were chatting with Farahin and Hakeem, during one of our tuition breaks, while eating cheese naan perhaps. Hehe good times they were.

#5 Supertramp - Goodbye Stranger
Hakeem. One of the very few people who listens to Supertramp's songs. This is one of the things that we have in common, a liking towards songs past our time. Of course ultimately this song will always remind me of the long car rides back to Ban Kuan, how we used to sing it in the car, thanks to father. Happy days.

#6 The Pretenders - I'll Stand By You
W. I used to sing this to you and I meant every word.

#7 Ne-Yo - Part Of The List
Post break up song. It hits too close to home. But then again all emotional love songs hits close to home heh heh. It also reminds me of Wafa, like how most songs of Ne-Yo do. Because he just likes Ne-Yo, a lot.

#8 Pitbull ft. Pharell - Blanco
Amir, one of the lads ;) I never liked this song that much, but after listening to them singing it in his car, I was hooked for while.

#9 Melly Goeslow ft. Jimmo - Pujaanku
I was in form 3 when I heard this. Those days when I was such a hopeless romantic, thinking love was like in the movies. I heard this in Eiffel I'm In Love and loved it, indeed. It's such a good song. Helpless? Hopeless? That's me.

#10 Madcon - Beggin'
H. Heard it in H's car and in Step 3 of course. This song never fails to cheer me up with its groovy beats and catchy lyrics. And of course, the good time I had that day.

#11 Samsons - Kenangan Terindah
I'm not quite sure who it reminds me of but I remember singing it out loud with a bunch of mates. The lyrics really suits the situation now. This one's for you ;)

#12 Jay Chou - Ye Qu (Nocturne)
This is the song I look forward to hearing on my cell. It means you're on the other end of the line :) Heard this on MTV a long time ago. The only song of Jay Chou I know heh.

#13 Broery Marantika - Kaulah Segalanya
I remember how you used to sing this to me over the phone, and how I'd sing along together when you reach the chorus. I remember being absolutely unaware of the song then, and now it's one of the songs I can't stop listening to. It reminds me of you and made me miss you so.

#14 Kesha - Cannibal
Alan made me listen to this ridiculously horny crazy song by Kesha bahahaha.

#15 The Strokes - Heart In A Cage
Haziq. He got me into listening to The Strokes. Thanks buddy.

#16 Stevie Wonder - I Just Called To Say I Love You
W. You were sad and I was too, so I called you up and left a voice sms on your cell. I sang it, and even though a tad shy to sing it, I did it anyway. I remember how happy you sounded and how you looked when I sang it to you again.

#17 Big Bang ft. 2NE1 - Lollipop
AFI !! I blame her for getting me into Korean songs (K-pop) !! She told me to listen to this and the rest is history. Who would have thought we'd jump into the wagon ay bb? Hehe lovelove.

#18 Feeling - Love It When You Call
WAWI! Because it's her caller ringtone AND well, she never calls :P Hehe Wawi if you're reading this, you know I love you ;) xx

#19 Lovehunters - Teman
Laili, my room mate during my first semester in Gombak, loved this song. She used to play this song over and over till I could memorize the lyrics. She finished school, got a job, got married and is now 6 months pregnant! Ahh how times flies. I miss her so.

#20 Bon Jovi - Always
Because you used to sing this every time we went karaoke-ing ;)

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I think that sums it up for tonight, hehe.

But then again, most of the love songs or related to it reminds me of you. That's normal, I guess, you being the only one I ever wanted.


Love,
me.

Things I'll Never Say

#1 Stop posting pictures of you with make up over and over again, with the same poses and same clothing and close ups. Do I have to say "You are not pretty. And whoever hired you to model for them is too poor to hire someone good or they are just blind", to make you stop? It's annoying. You are so full of yourself.

#2 I am aghast at how you behave around others. People don't care what brand you're wearing, or who you're seeing or friends with. If they don't ask, just shut the fuck up. I was so disappointed to know that you're like that. You're not even rich yet! Can't imagine if you're actually really freaking filthy rich I bet you'd talk designers from dusk till dawn. Pfft.

#3 I want to be friends with you but I guess you're just too good for me huh? Oh well. At least I did my part.

#4 I can be friendly when I choose to be so if I am, take it as it is. Don't start thinking I actually mean something behind my friendliness / kindness / generosity etc unless I say so. I just care about my friends and the ones that made me happy.

#5 Stop trying to add me dumbass.

#6 I don't like you I don't want to talk to you I want to remove you from my freaking lists but I can't so please just stop trying to talk to me. We have nothing to talk about!

#7 I still don't like you. Stop singing already you're hurting my ears.

#8 You must know that I do not like waiting for people. So please, try not to be late next time.

#9 I miss you.

Thinking of you

Remember how you used to sing it to me and I'll sing along when we reach the chorus? It never occurred to me that one day, I'll hear someone playing it and the first person I'll think about will be you.

It was lovely and I felt as if I was in love all over again. It made me want to sing out loud, especially when they hit the chorus.

It made me miss you.

Dan sebenarnya,

aku rindu.

just because

Because you were in all of my plans. Every plan I made had you in it. Now I can't seem to come up with anything new. Even if I do, I don't seem to like it because there's no you. I was so sure of it. So sure of us. Now I'm not that sure anymore. Now my plans all messed up. Now I don't have a plan. The only plan I have is the one I made with you.

Somehow, I still wish that that plan will come true.

Secretly, I keep on hoping it will.

Adventures

I had an interesting weekend :) How was yours?

The Burning Of Fields

Look what you've made me do.

I burnt down the world, for you.

(via I Wrote This For You)

Captain Hook

Haaargh. I've been meaning to write, again and again, but as always my laziness won me over and stopped me from doing so. Not to mention the unexpected (and always, last minute) activities and outings. That be said, I've been out most of the time, meeting people here and there and everywhere.

I spent New Years at home (see how good I've been? haha), initially planning to write this (and more) but I was caught up watching the telly with my family and laughing our tush off. They showcased 3 Idiots on Ch 110 and we enjoyed it! We downloaded it right after and have watched it more than 5 times already! It is a really good movie, full of good values of love, life and friendship. I recommend that you take some time off work and watch it.

I met Ramblings a number of times and had a jolly time with her; sipping tea, having scones, announcing our (or my, to be exact) favourite Korean place, looking for earrings for her and her sister, attending her sister's reception and of course, gossip. Funny when we say gossip, we only normally (always) talk about ourselves and what's the latest news in our lives.

In case you didn't know Ramblings, she has been a friend since '05 and from the moment we met (oh wait, in our case, it's chat (chatted?)) in an instant, we had a connection, a bond like no other (ecehhh). She's been a great friend over the years, never failing to remember my birthday or call me once in a while all the way from Australia. Now that she's back and I'm here, we've been seeing each other more than we did in last 5 years. Believe it or not, throughout the whole period of our friendship, we've only really met and sat down together (not over a nice cuppa tea then), twice. Yes. Once ever 2 years, I suppose? Or whenever she's back really. I've enjoyed her company and I am a wee bit sad that she will be leaving for uni again in a month's time. Bugger. I am however, looking forward to our next tea session. Scones, perhaps, love? (British accent)

I also met the Tweeties gang sans twice, sans Jidin and Hazirah. They've been lovely, keeping me company in the Twitter world with their theatrics and what not. Always some new random story to talk about, it's refreshing :) (read: we're not all virtual friends who met out of the blue. We're connected by one or two people within the group. Six degrees of separation, they say)

I went out with my darlings, Bo and Fatin (look pictures below) and bought myself a couple of jade earrings that made me feel like a total girl. Speaking of which, I am determined to change my ways and improve myself, especially where my manners (as a lady) are concerned. I have been advised to be more, delicate, gentle, graceful and of course, more patient. I intend to do just that. Mum have also reminded me that I should act like one, an adult. A woman. I am also into experimenting with some new clothing, some things/tops/accessories that I don't normally where. It is time that I embrace my feminine side. I have been acquainted (that's an understatement) with my masculine side for far too long.

Not to say that I should lose my ways and change one-eighty altogether. All I'm saying is that, there is (definitely) room for improvement and I need to do just that. I will still be the opinionated (although I tend to keep my thoughts to myself nowadays), tough cookie. Maybe with more charm than before. Perhaps.

I also met up with my girls and finally learnt how to play Monopoly Deal, thanks to Aisha, the queen of games. I won on the second round, and the third as well! Take that Aisha, Ian, Ikha! Bangga jap. I had such a wonderful time with the lot, watching Malaysia playing against Indonesia, and win, meeting Olaf for the very first time and of course winning Monopoly Deal.

I went home for four weeks straight, every weekend, and spent most of my time in the car playing driver or playing around with the adorable little boy. Pardon me but I have this tendency to talk incessantly about my baby brother because well, I just love that boy so much. What can I say, he's my favourite boy :)

Oh my, I almost forgot. How can I forget! Syukri and Niksu came all the way to Uia to see me! Isn't that sweet, or what? I took them to Simpang and we had such a scrumptious dinner. We then drive to Taman Melati as they wanted to try out the Habib Burger that I claimed to be the best in town hehe and and and, they loved it! I am so glad that they enjoyed the dinner AND early supper haha! They really made me happy, by coming all the way from Shah Alam/PJ and then taking me to my favourite warung and ordering some of my favourite food. We exchanged stories and I managed to excite Syuk for his then upcoming visit to London (the lad had a fab time spending NYE in London and then in Amsterdam).

Bo also came to Uia and took me to Simpang, where we had a lovely dinner along with the boys, who joined us after and had a bawl teasing me (Bo went in on it as well) regarding my Twitter updates that for two days, I hardly tweeted at all. Well, yes I was a little bit emo and sad that they keep on bugging me about it but all is well. ALLL IZZ VELLL (watch the 3 Idiots and you will understand).

I still haven't met the girl who's friends with the squirrel, the introvert. I wonder, when will I ever? Soon, I hope. I'm looking forward to that.

Well, I have certainly done my part now, haven't I? There's a lot more stories to tell, of course, but I think this is best, for now. I will write again, of course, as this is the only media to help me brush up my writing skills and hopefully improve my vocabulary. Sadly the quality of my writing have deteriorated (not like it was top notch before, but you get me) and I am slightly well, sad about it. I will try my best to read more often and write too, in hopes of producing better sentences and what not. Maybe I just don't have that flair, like some people do. No matter.

It's time to go now. I've spent too long sitting down squeezing my brain to write this ahaha. Till then.


Love,
me.

Oh, look at the date. This day, a year ago, something really unpleasant happened that changed the course of history. Today, however, was spent sitting in a car running errands here and there.

So many things to share with you, all in due time.

Oh, and Happy New Year.