#20

And nothing compares to the joys I've had with you.

#26

Because ultimately, at the end of a long and tiring day, it is you that I want to come home to.

Arms and hands

Jake Gyllenhaal, Johnny Depp, Brad Pitt & .. W.

Especially W's. Because I like it ;)

Recurrence

There was a point in time when I named my titles of names, mainly masculine. I might just start once again. I kind of like it. It's nice, simple and straight, different. I used to name them after your aliases. Because I liked it, because I can.

February's coming soon. That might just be the new theme.

Till then.

Chart toppers

Different songs remind me of the different people in my life, the events that took place or the emotion that it evoked in me once upon a time or in some cases, still do. So I decided to write a post just on that, on some of the songs that remind me of the people around me and the events that took place.

Feeling very nostalgic tonight baby.

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#1 Git Fresh - Blow Me A Kiss
Diane, my ex room mate for a semester. She was the one who introduced me to this song and I was hooked. I remember singing it in S's car along with Wafa and Alan.

#2 Glenn Fredly - Januari
Break up song. Need I say more?

#3 Chris Brown - Forever
This song reminds me of Zhaf, of the time we took that ride back from Afi's place during Raya. It played and I remember being happy at that time, with my friends and that boy in my hand, right beside me. This song immortalized that moment forever, no pun intended. This was a long time back, back when Zhaf was still single, still with us and still here.

#4 Orson - No Tomorrow
I first heard this song at Nihmat from Haziq's Nokiaphone, while we were chatting with Farahin and Hakeem, during one of our tuition breaks, while eating cheese naan perhaps. Hehe good times they were.

#5 Supertramp - Goodbye Stranger
Hakeem. One of the very few people who listens to Supertramp's songs. This is one of the things that we have in common, a liking towards songs past our time. Of course ultimately this song will always remind me of the long car rides back to Ban Kuan, how we used to sing it in the car, thanks to father. Happy days.

#6 The Pretenders - I'll Stand By You
W. I used to sing this to you and I meant every word.

#7 Ne-Yo - Part Of The List
Post break up song. It hits too close to home. But then again all emotional love songs hits close to home heh heh. It also reminds me of Wafa, like how most songs of Ne-Yo do. Because he just likes Ne-Yo, a lot.

#8 Pitbull ft. Pharell - Blanco
Amir, one of the lads ;) I never liked this song that much, but after listening to them singing it in his car, I was hooked for while.

#9 Melly Goeslow ft. Jimmo - Pujaanku
I was in form 3 when I heard this. Those days when I was such a hopeless romantic, thinking love was like in the movies. I heard this in Eiffel I'm In Love and loved it, indeed. It's such a good song. Helpless? Hopeless? That's me.

#10 Madcon - Beggin'
H. Heard it in H's car and in Step 3 of course. This song never fails to cheer me up with its groovy beats and catchy lyrics. And of course, the good time I had that day.

#11 Samsons - Kenangan Terindah
I'm not quite sure who it reminds me of but I remember singing it out loud with a bunch of mates. The lyrics really suits the situation now. This one's for you ;)

#12 Jay Chou - Ye Qu (Nocturne)
This is the song I look forward to hearing on my cell. It means you're on the other end of the line :) Heard this on MTV a long time ago. The only song of Jay Chou I know heh.

#13 Broery Marantika - Kaulah Segalanya
I remember how you used to sing this to me over the phone, and how I'd sing along together when you reach the chorus. I remember being absolutely unaware of the song then, and now it's one of the songs I can't stop listening to. It reminds me of you and made me miss you so.

#14 Kesha - Cannibal
Alan made me listen to this ridiculously horny crazy song by Kesha bahahaha.

#15 The Strokes - Heart In A Cage
Haziq. He got me into listening to The Strokes. Thanks buddy.

#16 Stevie Wonder - I Just Called To Say I Love You
W. You were sad and I was too, so I called you up and left a voice sms on your cell. I sang it, and even though a tad shy to sing it, I did it anyway. I remember how happy you sounded and how you looked when I sang it to you again.

#17 Big Bang ft. 2NE1 - Lollipop
AFI !! I blame her for getting me into Korean songs (K-pop) !! She told me to listen to this and the rest is history. Who would have thought we'd jump into the wagon ay bb? Hehe lovelove.

#18 Feeling - Love It When You Call
WAWI! Because it's her caller ringtone AND well, she never calls :P Hehe Wawi if you're reading this, you know I love you ;) xx

#19 Lovehunters - Teman
Laili, my room mate during my first semester in Gombak, loved this song. She used to play this song over and over till I could memorize the lyrics. She finished school, got a job, got married and is now 6 months pregnant! Ahh how times flies. I miss her so.

#20 Bon Jovi - Always
Because you used to sing this every time we went karaoke-ing ;)

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I think that sums it up for tonight, hehe.

But then again, most of the love songs or related to it reminds me of you. That's normal, I guess, you being the only one I ever wanted.


Love,
me.

Things I'll Never Say

#1 Stop posting pictures of you with make up over and over again, with the same poses and same clothing and close ups. Do I have to say "You are not pretty. And whoever hired you to model for them is too poor to hire someone good or they are just blind", to make you stop? It's annoying. You are so full of yourself.

#2 I am aghast at how you behave around others. People don't care what brand you're wearing, or who you're seeing or friends with. If they don't ask, just shut the fuck up. I was so disappointed to know that you're like that. You're not even rich yet! Can't imagine if you're actually really freaking filthy rich I bet you'd talk designers from dusk till dawn. Pfft.

#3 I want to be friends with you but I guess you're just too good for me huh? Oh well. At least I did my part.

#4 I can be friendly when I choose to be so if I am, take it as it is. Don't start thinking I actually mean something behind my friendliness / kindness / generosity etc unless I say so. I just care about my friends and the ones that made me happy.

#5 Stop trying to add me dumbass.

#6 I don't like you I don't want to talk to you I want to remove you from my freaking lists but I can't so please just stop trying to talk to me. We have nothing to talk about!

#7 I still don't like you. Stop singing already you're hurting my ears.

#8 You must know that I do not like waiting for people. So please, try not to be late next time.

#9 I miss you.

Thinking of you

Remember how you used to sing it to me and I'll sing along when we reach the chorus? It never occurred to me that one day, I'll hear someone playing it and the first person I'll think about will be you.

It was lovely and I felt as if I was in love all over again. It made me want to sing out loud, especially when they hit the chorus.

It made me miss you.

Dan sebenarnya,

aku rindu.

just because

Because you were in all of my plans. Every plan I made had you in it. Now I can't seem to come up with anything new. Even if I do, I don't seem to like it because there's no you. I was so sure of it. So sure of us. Now I'm not that sure anymore. Now my plans all messed up. Now I don't have a plan. The only plan I have is the one I made with you.

Somehow, I still wish that that plan will come true.

Secretly, I keep on hoping it will.

Adventures

I had an interesting weekend :) How was yours?

The Burning Of Fields

Look what you've made me do.

I burnt down the world, for you.

(via I Wrote This For You)

Captain Hook

Haaargh. I've been meaning to write, again and again, but as always my laziness won me over and stopped me from doing so. Not to mention the unexpected (and always, last minute) activities and outings. That be said, I've been out most of the time, meeting people here and there and everywhere.

I spent New Years at home (see how good I've been? haha), initially planning to write this (and more) but I was caught up watching the telly with my family and laughing our tush off. They showcased 3 Idiots on Ch 110 and we enjoyed it! We downloaded it right after and have watched it more than 5 times already! It is a really good movie, full of good values of love, life and friendship. I recommend that you take some time off work and watch it.

I met Ramblings a number of times and had a jolly time with her; sipping tea, having scones, announcing our (or my, to be exact) favourite Korean place, looking for earrings for her and her sister, attending her sister's reception and of course, gossip. Funny when we say gossip, we only normally (always) talk about ourselves and what's the latest news in our lives.

In case you didn't know Ramblings, she has been a friend since '05 and from the moment we met (oh wait, in our case, it's chat (chatted?)) in an instant, we had a connection, a bond like no other (ecehhh). She's been a great friend over the years, never failing to remember my birthday or call me once in a while all the way from Australia. Now that she's back and I'm here, we've been seeing each other more than we did in last 5 years. Believe it or not, throughout the whole period of our friendship, we've only really met and sat down together (not over a nice cuppa tea then), twice. Yes. Once ever 2 years, I suppose? Or whenever she's back really. I've enjoyed her company and I am a wee bit sad that she will be leaving for uni again in a month's time. Bugger. I am however, looking forward to our next tea session. Scones, perhaps, love? (British accent)

I also met the Tweeties gang sans twice, sans Jidin and Hazirah. They've been lovely, keeping me company in the Twitter world with their theatrics and what not. Always some new random story to talk about, it's refreshing :) (read: we're not all virtual friends who met out of the blue. We're connected by one or two people within the group. Six degrees of separation, they say)

I went out with my darlings, Bo and Fatin (look pictures below) and bought myself a couple of jade earrings that made me feel like a total girl. Speaking of which, I am determined to change my ways and improve myself, especially where my manners (as a lady) are concerned. I have been advised to be more, delicate, gentle, graceful and of course, more patient. I intend to do just that. Mum have also reminded me that I should act like one, an adult. A woman. I am also into experimenting with some new clothing, some things/tops/accessories that I don't normally where. It is time that I embrace my feminine side. I have been acquainted (that's an understatement) with my masculine side for far too long.

Not to say that I should lose my ways and change one-eighty altogether. All I'm saying is that, there is (definitely) room for improvement and I need to do just that. I will still be the opinionated (although I tend to keep my thoughts to myself nowadays), tough cookie. Maybe with more charm than before. Perhaps.

I also met up with my girls and finally learnt how to play Monopoly Deal, thanks to Aisha, the queen of games. I won on the second round, and the third as well! Take that Aisha, Ian, Ikha! Bangga jap. I had such a wonderful time with the lot, watching Malaysia playing against Indonesia, and win, meeting Olaf for the very first time and of course winning Monopoly Deal.

I went home for four weeks straight, every weekend, and spent most of my time in the car playing driver or playing around with the adorable little boy. Pardon me but I have this tendency to talk incessantly about my baby brother because well, I just love that boy so much. What can I say, he's my favourite boy :)

Oh my, I almost forgot. How can I forget! Syukri and Niksu came all the way to Uia to see me! Isn't that sweet, or what? I took them to Simpang and we had such a scrumptious dinner. We then drive to Taman Melati as they wanted to try out the Habib Burger that I claimed to be the best in town hehe and and and, they loved it! I am so glad that they enjoyed the dinner AND early supper haha! They really made me happy, by coming all the way from Shah Alam/PJ and then taking me to my favourite warung and ordering some of my favourite food. We exchanged stories and I managed to excite Syuk for his then upcoming visit to London (the lad had a fab time spending NYE in London and then in Amsterdam).

Bo also came to Uia and took me to Simpang, where we had a lovely dinner along with the boys, who joined us after and had a bawl teasing me (Bo went in on it as well) regarding my Twitter updates that for two days, I hardly tweeted at all. Well, yes I was a little bit emo and sad that they keep on bugging me about it but all is well. ALLL IZZ VELLL (watch the 3 Idiots and you will understand).

I still haven't met the girl who's friends with the squirrel, the introvert. I wonder, when will I ever? Soon, I hope. I'm looking forward to that.

Well, I have certainly done my part now, haven't I? There's a lot more stories to tell, of course, but I think this is best, for now. I will write again, of course, as this is the only media to help me brush up my writing skills and hopefully improve my vocabulary. Sadly the quality of my writing have deteriorated (not like it was top notch before, but you get me) and I am slightly well, sad about it. I will try my best to read more often and write too, in hopes of producing better sentences and what not. Maybe I just don't have that flair, like some people do. No matter.

It's time to go now. I've spent too long sitting down squeezing my brain to write this ahaha. Till then.


Love,
me.

Oh, look at the date. This day, a year ago, something really unpleasant happened that changed the course of history. Today, however, was spent sitting in a car running errands here and there.

So many things to share with you, all in due time.

Oh, and Happy New Year.