Beautiful Stranger

February has been full of emotions, ups and downs, smiles and frowns. It has showed me how to move forward, with words from the most unexpected sources and surprised me with something new which turned out to be both refreshing and comforting.

I found myself busy; with the pile of school work, midterms to be done and some wandering around with friends. Time was well spent with loved ones over countless drinks and multiple stories.

Thank you February, for your brute honesty, for your kindness, for the joy you brought and for the lessons you taught. Thank you for mending my heart.

You have been lovely. I'll see you again next year.

Scars.

Read 'em and weep.


Scars.

One.
If I could, I would nail these hands to the edges of stars.
I would sacrifice this body to the sky, hoping to resurrect as someone spiteful enough to not give a fuck about you.

Two.
Staple me to a cross.
Pierce my side with a broken promise and I will bleed all the crippled reasons why you deserve one more chance.

Three.
Your bed smells like the last thing I was really good at.

Four.
You want to know how I got these scars.
I ripped every last piece of you out of my smile.

Five.
I whispered you stardust.

Six.
I spoke you into sunflowers.

Seven.
I dipped my hands in forever, touched you infinity,
treated you as if you were the last molecule of oxygen inside of a gas chamber.

I was good to you.

Eight.
You want to know how I got these scars.
I swallowed my pride and then it clawed its way out of my mouth.

Nine.
I realized that I was never really your boyfriend.
I was just your fucking hype man.

Ten.
I hope your next boyfriend gets small pox.

Ten.
Yes, I said small pox.

Ten.
I hate you.
Ten.
I miss you.
Ten.
I love you.

It’s hard for me to count when I get emotional..

Ten.
I heard the 90% of human interaction is non-verbal, so..

—-

Ten.
If I could, I would tie your arms to a daydream and then auction you off to my fondest memories.

See, I wrote this poem in my own spinal fluid.
I put it on the backbone of a white flag so that before you read it, you already know that I’ve given up.
I’ll just keep you here, shackled to the most important chapter of my life story, pressed into the basement of my eyelids like liquid salvation, so I remember you beautiful, with amazing underneath your wings and an orchid smile.

You gorgeous earthquake.

You cracked hour glass with sand spilling from behind your ribs.

You wasted my time.

How dare you linger on my lips then kiss me like a stuttering apology with excuses stapled to the roof of your mouth.
I still remember you like a dream, tattooed to the inner walls of a long-term memory but some days,

I wonder if you existed at all.

And of course,

You want to know how I got these scars.

Fine.
I’ll tell you.

I got these scars the day that I fell in love with you. I landed face first.

- Rudy Francisco

Have fun.

Lucian

Because I suddenly woke up from my slumber and am trying to kill time before I fall asleep again. This song is sad yet lovely. Somehow I am attracted to sad songs heh. I guess I could just relate although many won't allow me to listen to it, fearing I might not break free. Ahaks, I'm fine lovelies. For the first time in many months, I can finally say I am. I am content :)

Adele - Someone Like You

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Good night. xx

Martin

Livin' la vida loca.

Live you life and be happy :)

Adkins

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

It is time. Time to heal, and be happy. We owe that much to ourselves.

William

I am so grateful for the existence of Skype. Thank god for Skype! It shall be my best friend from here on out. Video calls made easy hehe! I hope you're well, wearing enough layers of clothes, getting the right amount of sleep, eating properly and in the pink of health. Much love from Kuala Lumpur to you my darlings - Dublin, Melbourne and Auckland. I'll see you soon ♥

xx

Stephen

Sometimes you do things not because you like it, but because someone who was once (or still is) important to you used to do those things. You drink milk in the morning because they said they liked doing so, listen to certain songs and sing-a-long to it even though it's not exactly your favourite song in the world or go to the places they liked even though it's not your scene.

You emulate these actions because it reminds you of them, because somehow, deep down, you actually miss them.

James

I don't know what I'm feeling. The story seems to be coming out straight from a movie, or something like it. Don't play with fire cause you know you're gonna get burned, and you should know that better than anyone.

Maybe that's because I'm just nice like that. I'm just a good friend, you know. What can I say, I like making people happy like that. It gives me a sense of satisfaction, knowing I could make someone's day just by going the extra mile. I like seeing happy faces and speechless smiles to go with it. It makes me happy.

God works in mysterious ways. I'm still trying to figure where I fit in the picture. There's a number of possible paths I could take but I'm unsure if I should take it, if I want to. I shall instead look and see what happens and where this road will take me.

I wish I could see you both before you go but sadly I couldn't. Be safe my darlings, and be good to yourself. We'll meet again someday, when you get back. You will be missed.

John Denver

Two of my favourite people are leaving for Dublin and Melbourne on Saturday and Sunday, respectively. I want to send them both to the airport. I don't know when I'll be seeing them again.

So yes, dear God, please let that be possible. Amin.

The Trees

Sometimes you don't see what's right in front of you.

Sometimes you need the people around you to tell you what's right in front of you.

Listen.


(via I Wrote This For You)

Carlos

"Ubat tu pahit"



Indeed, it is. The truth hurts, but I guess it was just what I needed. It's okay, there's nothing I can't take, right? I've taken more shit from people than I can imagine.



But thank you, in all seriousness, thank you for being there. Thank you for the brute honesty. Thank you for your time and most of all, thank you for being wonderful.



I'll have your back(s) forever, always. You are loved <3

Alexander

The meanest thing you could possibly say to someone has already been said. The stupidest thing you could possibly do has already been done.

Driving in circles, in disappointments and in tears.

Christian

I hate how I'm feeling these past few days. I hate the things I find out, the things I see, the things I learn, the things that hurt me, the things I said, the things I feel - everything. I just hate these past few days. Harghhhh.

I thought I've hit rock bottom before. Hmm, guess I was wrong.

The Leftovers

I made myself from all the love you no longer wanted.


(via I Wrote This For You)

The Distance To Me

You've got a bad case of being over there. The only cure is being over here.


(via I Wrote This For You)