I smell a cow

My pants smell funny. Like fish maybe? I smell funny. Scratch the funny, I smell. I slept way past my bedtime last night, stayed up till four then forced myself to sleep even though I find it hard to. Had only six short hours of sleep, mind you, and woke up with a slight fever. Add that to the itch in my eyes and it was just super. Riiiiggghhhtt.

So I've washed the clothes, did the dishes, took out the garbage and still I have to iron some other clothes and and and, pack my suitcase. Yes, pack. I did not pack last night as I was too lazy to do so; all I did was toss and turn trying to sleep with the music and light on. So clever ah. I fail. Phail. FAIL.

And so, here I am typing this away, still not packing. Ma gave me a deadline, I must finish everything by three as we'll be leaving for my grandma's then. Three and a half hours to go. Go go go.

Oh yeah, my score on Word Challenge is not good nope, it is only a MERE 13k. Some even scored till 65k. Like hell, yeah. Oh well.




I'll be back kids.

Lady Writer

I've done nothing today. Eh wait, yesterday. I still haven't pack for Kedah AND Langkawi. Great. I feel like writing about a lot of things but since my eyes are now tired, I shall write on another day, perhaps later when the sun is shining bright.

It's going to be a long day today. Yes. I have yet to pack my suitcase, get some sleep, try to wake up early, burn some cds, clean the house, go to my grandma's, help out with the kenduri then get back home, sleep again, wake up early and head back to Kedah. Make that two long days.

I'm currently listening to Dire Straits - Sultans Of Swing and it is on repeat on the player. The rhythm is just so addictive, so smooth. And the way he sings is just like Bob Dylan sans the husky rocker voice, but he still rock, this dude (I forgot what his name was heh). Music is love. Heh.

Oh yeah, note that the title in the music player is wrongly typed. Error there love, my bad. It's Sultans Of Swing. Not swings the buaian. LOL.

My sisters have been (crazily) singing Kate Bush's Wuthering Heights which I have yet to check out and give it a go, a chance. My first impression of that song was -. Heh. Give it a go, maybe you'll like it. And no, these aren't new songs or singers folks. They date back in the old times when our parents were still young and rock was still rock, without that trash sound, although that is the sound that I listen to quite often. Heh.

So I've got a few good songs to accompany me while I try my best to pack as fast as humanly possible. I pack slow-ly. I work at my own pace.

It's already two now. Good luck to that and good night.

Word Challenge

This has got to be the best application on Facebook. So much so that it had me glued to my seat as I think and type words I don't even know as fast as I can. Shafiq said only those with no life plays these things. Well my boy, it's not a crime now that I have plenty of time to kill. Plus, it is a good game ey ey ey. You play the game then your score will determine the level of your vocabulary and compared with a kind of occupation/people. It's simple really. I currently hold a good score of 13336 and ranked as a Politician. Ahh, bliss.

You can play here.

Mime
Hermit
Playground Bully
Drill Sergeant
Rockstar
Cheerleader
Salesman
Ringmaster
Student
Teacher
Lawyer
Film Director
Librarian
Scribe
Physician
Reporter
Politician

Yes Shafiq, your girlfriend is a nerd. No wait, or is it geek? HAHA. Oh well, that's not a problem kan kan kan Shafiq? Fufufufu ;)


Now back to the game. Turrah.

Nostalgia

I was going through the photo albums in Mika when our song started playing and suddenly I felt so nostalgic I just felt like posting these up. Great memories, great moments and even greater people.

Here's to the good, the bad and the times ahead. Cheers.

Another phase

There is nothing new about my life. It still consists of the same old chores and schedules, from waking up at eleven to making lunch to sleeping after midnight. Life is still the same, with the, now, occasional shopping sprees, phone calls and late night talks. Not to the mention the constant need of money, as the purse is now empty and is filled with nothing but random items.

Amidst the dreariness of my days, I am occupying myself with a new obsession - a word game. I have come to realise, even more now, that my vocabulary is notably poor. Yes. I shall take up reading, the dictionary that is, as a hobby from now onwards. Well, it's an option I should consider.

I've been trying to form words and make use of this space for such stories yet I am unable to do so. And now, I shall end this post with a tag, by Adilah.



1. Do you eat a lot of fast food?
At the moment, I do, always craving for McDonald's Double Cheeseburger set though I know that all those calories and fat will only add up to my body weight. Heh.

2. Were you happy when you woke up today?
I was less than happy, it is just as any other day.

3. Are you an understanding person?
Surprisingly, despite being very emotional, I can be/am pretty understanding. I do try my best not to let my emotions take control.

4. What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
Step Up 2: The Streets. I know I know, I don't go out often, let alone go to the cinema.

5. What did you last get upset about?
The fact that you didn't tell me sooner, only after you're there.

6. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
Only if it's a bar of Toblerone chocolate. I'm not much of a candy person.

7. Does it make you happy to get letters in the mail?
Of course. The idea of snail mail is fun. The writing, the anticipation (although anticipation is known to kill), snail mail seems oh-so-nice, unless it's from the bank, court or government.

8. What are you looking forward to this summer?
Malaysia is an all year long summer country, so, I'm looking forward to going to Andaman this 26th and starting my final semester in PJ and finally, hopefully, being free again.

9. Who was the last person you ate with?
Abah and the two sisters.

10. Do raisins belong in cookies?
I prefer them to be raisins-free.

11. What's your screen name?
I've a couple of screen names, but mainly consists of my first name, Alyaa.

12. Walking into a party, what's the first thing you notice?
I'd be fussing about how I look and the dress code, noticing how great the others are and how I am not, and also, suddenly being all shy and quiet if it's not my usual crowd.

13. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
I am done with my science subjects, ho yeah! Rejoice ahhhh.

14. You've just won a free vacation to either South America or North Korea?
I'd much prefer South America where at least the people, although few could possibly understand English. And of course, the interesting culture and beautiful places there.

15. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
Steak, rib-eye medium.

16. What's one thing you've learned?
Don't take shit from people, quoted by a loved one.

17. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Of myself, I suppose.

18. Would you ever donate blood?
I did, once, and my body ballooned soon after. Still is. I think that will be the only one time I will ever donate blood, unless I am slim again.

19. How many snack machines are in your school?
None that exists.

20. Do you believe in karma?
It happens, God is Great. He pays in cash.

21. Are you good at telling jokes?
I've never considered myself a funny person, or even able to be funny let alone tell a joke - but I can.

22. Do you wish you had smaller feet?
No, my feet are fine. I wish for smaller thighs though.

23. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes, a few. But there's one in particular, it was great. Until he fell. And I fell. We both did, and then it became greater :)

24. When ordering sushi, what do you get?
Normally I'd order about 4 plates of Ebikko, a few plates of Salmon (Sake) and occasionally I'd take the Eel, Octopus and Tuna. Oh, and Sashimi's great too. I love my sushi.

25. What were you doing at 10 am?
Woke up from my slumber and falling asleep five minutes after.

26. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
I've grown, physically, emotionally and mentally, even though being captive in my own home makes me want to lose my sanity. But yes.

28. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
Surprisingly, I haven't spilled beverage for quite a long while now. Yes, I used to be that careless with drinks.



Now, back to that word game I was telling you about. Turrah.

In a flash

Today, we shopped. A LOT.

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... on the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore



But, sadly, I am in no mood for such words or stories. Sorry.

; Other Side Of The World - KT Tunstall

Droopy eyes

I'm really sleepy and my eyes are heavy but I'm trying to stay up till about midnight perhaps, by that time I suppose Shafiq's game will be over with. Need to catch up with the scores. If it's one thing that upsets me this holiday, it's this. I've planned and wanted to watch him play, be there for him and all (cheer, mcm dulu kan Mok) but then, hah!, no short semester means no going out. Super great. NOT.

Hope he's doing fine, something went out of order last night. Let this be a better day than the last and tomorrow, better than today.

I desperately need to sleep, but darling Fatin wants to drop by my house as she's bored. Why not, I miss that little duck anyways. She's my neighbour, by the way, hence the late night visit. Haha. Normal ja.


And so...


Another tag by Niksu, again.


5 presents:
1. missing Shafiq like mad.
2. listening to Accidental Babies, bliss.

3. waiting for Fatin.

4. sleepy, droopy eyes.

5. talking to Mama.

5 reasons for the above:
1. because - I do, haven't seen him in agessss.
2. in need to soothing songs.

3. she's coming over.
4. tired tired tired.

5. about phone calls, gahhh.

5 impressions to the ones that I admire:
1. personality.
2. manners.
3. smile.
4. humor.
5. height, must be taller :D

Best thing he ever did for me:
For just being himself and being there for me. He is, the best thing that's ever happened to me. Chehhhh :)

5 greatest inventions:
1. computer.

2. internet.

3. telephone.

4. fooooooood, kira tak? takpa la.

5. Shafiq hehehe x)

5 most hated:
1. misunderstandings.

2. annoying, rude, uncivilised boys.
3. waiting.
4. fame-hungry kids/people.
5. the ex.

I shall end this post with a love note, no, picture. Yes, I am all cheese.

Deep conversations

The trip to PD was just as I expected it to be but it was good to have a change of scenery. The journey itself was rather interesting, we talked about it - Shafiq, Me, my crazy past with the insolent ex and what had happened. It's weird now that I get to freely talk about Shafiq with her whenever I feel like it or if she asks. I kinda had the feeling that she already knew about us ever since he came to the wedding and how I mention about him in our conversations. Either way, the 'sort-of-secret' is out, heh. I'm pretty amazed that she's so cool about it. This could get some getting use to ;)

As for PD, Ma and I arrived around 8.30am and there was a bit of confusion at first; Ma had mistaken our hotel as Avillion, although the place where we stayed was also called the same, only, Avillion Admiral Cove. Apparently, it seemed that they were of the same company, only different location. I prefer the former. Our room was alright, comtemporary and just fit for two days; I don't think we would've survived another day.

I spent the afternoon wandering in my dreams for a good three hours before joining Ma for a walk at the beach. Being there reminds me how great Andaman is. Speaking of which, we will be going back to Kedah for two days and later stay at Andaman for four nights during the school holidays. It's just super; the food, the scenery, the beach, the sea - pure bliss. It'll be our third stay come 26th. In case you didn't know, The Andaman is located in Langkawi, up North where its sole neighbour is The Datai. Really, you should check it out, The Andaman , it pays to indulge yourself in such luxuries once in a while. It's worth it. As for PD, the sunset was alright, not great but just okay. Oh, and I managed to snap a few photos, none than is good enough to be posted, plus they're pretty much personal ;)

Anyway, back to the story; later last night, we decided to check out the so-called bar. Before we did, we inquired the attendant about it and he informed us that there is a 'live band' playing. Aha, cool, maybe we'd take a quick peek or something. Honestly, I was only keen to access the internet as the bar and restaurant are the only place where Wi-Fi is provided. When we got there, there sure was music alright, only to our surprise it was a one-man show - some middle-aged dude singing with some sort of background music which is so karaoke. So much for 'live band', huh. What a laugh we had. Even worse, the 'live band' was horrible, Simon Cowell would've scorned at his atrocious singing ability. If he even had one. We were there for only a little while as I couldn't stand the horrible music despite finally being able to access the internet, my ears are way too precious for such pollution.

Slept around one and was woken up by my stupid alarm, which I forgot to switch off the other day, at five in the morning. Just what I needed. Ma and I end up watching some silly cheap expressionless movie on the telly, Star Movies more like. Later after breakfast, when she left for her uninspiring, boring seminar, I was left to watch more silly cheap expressionless movies - first a story about some high school kids who married early then one of those heroic type of movie called 'Red Sonja'. If I didn't have Mika to fiddle with I think I would've gone crazy.

Now I'm sitting in the member's lounge with my trustee laptop, a good internet connection and great music. Cheers to that. Surprisingly enough, I can't wait to get home even though it means getting back to cleaning the kitchen and doing the laundry. Oh well, suppose I miss the family :) Home is where the heart is, eh?

Caught off-guard

"Kaklong, Shafiq call"
"Hah? Bila? Now?"
"A ah"
"Letak la, tengah basuh pinggan kan"
"Dia cakap dengan I. Dia ingat I you"
"What? Then what did he say? What did you say?"
"Maaaa!"

"Takde pape la, I tipu you je. Saje nak test you"
"Ah, habis kaklong"
"Alaaa, I know la about you two"
"Ape?"
"Alaa, dah 18 tahun kan, takpe la. Mama dulu pun masa 18 tahun"
"Apa la you ni Ma"

"Ye. Yes, I have something with him"

"Tu la, tomorrow we can have our girls' talk in car"
"Aaaaah"
"Takpe kaklong, Mama ajar awak how to handle your relationship"
"What? Buat pe?"
"Ye la awak kan emotional sikit"
"Ehhhh, please laa"
"You selalu gaduh ke? I rasa ye la"
"Manede Ma, I'm happy je. Happy go lucky"
"Ye ke?"
"Ye la, yang tu, dulu dulu je, cerita lama"

"Dia baik tak?"
"Yeah"
"Dia semayang tak?"
"Yeeee"
"Penting kaklong. Takpe, I can accept dah"
"Haih, the truth is out"
"You ingat I tak tau ke, come on la. Dia sorang je yang datang semua"
"*laughs* tak biasa pulak cakap dengan you about this. Pelik"
"Eh, ape pulak?"

"Dah la I nak mandi"





Sekian.

Green eyed monster

Since I am in no mood to write in such manner tonight, I will only write the little things that matter. Yes, that and that only. Because I'm bitter tonight, bitter than I ever was before.


Thursday, 08/05/08
My grandfather, Atuk (Ma's side) was admitted to the hospital at five. Went to hospital and stayed there till midnight, after Atuk was transferred to HUKM.

Friday, 09/05/08
Didn't sleep much, went to HUKM and arrive around 4.40pm only to know that Atuk has passed away. He was 77 years old. It was just a sad day, a long day indeed. Went home at one and slept at two, or something like it. Slept only for three hours, or so.

Saturday, 10/05/08
Missed Atuk's funeral to attend MUET at Uia. It was good there, with a few small bumps, that went unnoticed. Perhaps. Later that night went to Nenek's house again for tahlil. Slept after midnight.

Sunday, 11/05/08
Woke up late and did some cleaning. The house was a mess. Everything was. Then I felt it again. It's not the first time it happened. Pfft. Got annoyed by it, slowly. Slowly eating myself up. God. Went to Nenek's after Maghrib and stayed till midnight. She could use some company. She's doing okay, for a widow.

Monday, 12/05/08
At the peak of everything. I feel like crap. I'm missing out on everything and I think the fact that you're the only sole -- in the group makes me feel slightly uncomfortable knowing that you are with them well, every single day, lunch and dinner. Come to think of it, that was me 4 months ago, no? Changes, like I said, can sometimes be good, and also can be bad. This one, I suppose I just have to live with that. Now I wonder, what will become of us next semester? Even now I find myself in an awkward position, always falling behind conversations and lost in translation.

Ah, fuck it. Zhaf would say. Perhaps, fuck it. Fuck it. Perhaps. I mean, I'm always being emotional, aren't I. So yes, today, tonight, at my peak. I sure hope it's the darn periods because that could probably explain a little why these tears are falling.

Yes I'm a bitter bitch tonight so let me be.

Pathetic.







And I still can't sleep.

Frappuccino

Today was a good day. The speaking test was alright, but I guess I could've done better. Oh well, it's done. This time around, we got our time. We went to Starbucks for a Mocha and Caramel till it was time to go home. And this picture made my day, although he looked utterly bored and I almost looked crazy, hence the pixelated face :)


My sister is driving me insane and I should get something to eat. The headache is getting worse now. Catch up with you later, love.


Turrah.

Talk to me, love

Went to Pj today. I was excited, happy and hopeful. Great time, although limited, spent with great people. I met the girls, the boys and the man himself. Then tell me, why do I feel like this right now?


Was it just as bad as it was before? Tell me tell me tell me.


You kept everything inside and
Even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when I


Maybe I already know, from the sound of your voice. Maybe, just maybe.


I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter


Such heartache. And now, I sometimes wish I didn't come at all. Being there felt so good yet saying goodbye hurt more than it should. Whatever happened to gratitude?


; In The End - Linkin Park

Two days

I will take my sweet time writing this now that the connection is back and alright, hopefully. First and foremost, I was away due to the poor internet connection this past week. I have thought of complaining about it but have yet to do so, Streamyx is not doing such a good job providing internet connection and there are always other options to choose from.

I finished reading Lock And Key on Friday. Basically, it is a good piece. There were just some parts in the story that seems to be dry, as if she was running out of ideas. Although it did not leave such an impact as This Lullaby and The Truth About Forever but it is still a good read altogether. For those who do not fancy chic lits or happy endings, don't bother reading, try something darker instead.

So, yesterday I went to the wedding with the pals and it was great. Haziq and Erin came around one and we left for Danau Kota which was only about ten minutes away from where we live. They came, the lot and I was glad that they did, I miss that bunch. Othman was there as well and he even brought along his new girl, Anne (Ann?). Nice girl, she is, pretty shy but then again I suppose that's normal considering how loud we were. We; Erin, Me, Haziq, Anne, Othman, Dannial, Rafa, Acu, Wak ate first and were later joined by Shamine and Izwan, Megat, Choin, Acoi and Apip.

We even met Farra, Qurratul and Nik. Well, I'm glad that we are in good terms, Nikki and I. About that, there were times when I just feel like calling her up and telling her every little thing that has happened since we last talk. Ah yes, good old times. Anyway, the food was good and the company was even better.

It was Adib's sister's wedding, she married a navy lieutenant and they had his comrades play the bagpipes while they walked to the stage (pelamin?). I want that at my wedding. So kita kahwin tentera laut ye Erin! HAHAHA. Taknak la, I'll pass. I already have someone in mind ;)

The bride was dressed in white and looked really nice. A white wedding, that was what I told Erin, what I wanted when I get married myself. Perhaps with a dab of soft pink and lilac here and there, but that's another story. Back to the wedding, the groom looked really good in his uniform, I suppose all men look good in uniforms? Well, you gotta love a man in a suit...or uniform ;) Hear hear. So we stayed around until three and headed to my place, as Haziq and Erin had to send me back first before going to NZ with the gang. Sadly, I had to retire as Ma was taking me to Medan Mara to pick up my newly-made kurungs. Ah, heaven.

I tell you folks, cotton, cotton is uber cool. Really nice to wear and good for this humid climate. I got my seven pairs alright, I tried one by one, and gave Faiqah one of 'em since she doesn't have enough kurungs herself and we only made one for her. All and all, I love my new kurungs. Hebat yaw! A happy cow I was, that day.

But somehow the day turned sour by midnight, probably due to the emotional phase I am currently going through, with all the wrong thoughts in my head thinking what I should not and my mouth saying what I shouldn't. Perhaps it was the hormones, the menstrual thing and everything. Perhaps it's just that time again, when I feel so utterly vulnerable to even the slightest remarks that were meant to only be a joke. I feel sorry, sorry for myself and even more for the person who had to be the punchbag, of all things. I'm sorry, I really am. It was good soon after the a good cry which was what I probably needed. Had a good phone call before dozing off to a good and pleasant dream fufufu. I LIKE :D


As for today, Abah turned 50. Happy 50th Abah, lovelove. We - the family, Pak Long, Mak Long, Mak Ngah, Kak Zairin, Abg Iwan, Banglong, Bangah, Aqi and Muhammad - went to Al-Diafah, a middle eastern (Lebanese/Arabic I'm not sure) restaurant at Sri Petaling to celebrate. No cakes though, Abah didn't want any. The food was great and we ate a lot, all of us. Took a few pictures with Kz, a few more of the others and then was too busy finishing the glorious food served. Rejoice ah :) Unfortunately, I forgot to take photos of the food itself, my bad.

I will only put that picture up as the little girl with the tongue out, Maryam, is too cute and annoying to be ignored haha. It's been a good day so far, and the connection seems to be pretty well too. Luckily for me, I managed to finish this post in time, before it goes bad again. Effin Streamyx !@$%&! Two days left.




I'm counting the days till I see you again, love.