Saturday, January 31, 2009

Tagged by Fiza :)

15 Things That I Have Learnt In 2008:

1) You can't please everyone. You win some, you lose some.

2) Sometimes what you want is not always what you need.

3) Admitting one's fault and saying sorry is not an act of defeat, it only shows how strong you are. So don't be so egoistic to say that you're sorry to the people around you.

4) True friends are the ones that stand by you through the difficult times no matter what, not the ones that only bother to call when you're trouble-free.

5) Family always comes first. They will always be there for you no matter what happens, despite the fact that they can (sometimes) be a total pain in the neck; not your so called 'friends'.

6) Life's a bitch, because it's difficult. If it's easy, then life's a slut.

7) I learnt that Quay is pronounced as "key" not "kuay" fufufu.

8) The glass is not half full or half empty - it is simply too big.

9) People who befriend you only when you are rich are not your friends.

10) Couples who go further than second base usually end up quarreling about little things and have insecurity problems.

11) If you want to take advice from someone, make sure he knows what he's talking about and be sure that it's from someone who is actually not so messed up, especially in the field that you are discussing.

12) Don't ask for lavish things if you or your parents' can't afford it. Don't you know how hard it is for them to work their ass off, feed you, pay the bills and attend to your material needs? Don't add up to their (already) heavy load.

13) Don't let your stupid ego stop you from doing something.

14) I figured out what turkish delight is muhahahhaa.

15) I learnt that 2009 comes after 2008.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Impaired.

How do you control your reactions to certain remarks or actions?

How do you control yourself from saying the wrong things like word vomit or keep smiling despite the fact that it feels like a pang in the face?

How can you not change your mind, or plans, after something so demoralizing and dampening happened?

How do you fend yourself from a bitter remark and still act happy-go-lucky, like it didn't matter to you not one bit?

How do you just drop it off and move on?

How do you forgive yourself?




So many questions left unaswered. Not so surprising now, is it.

Just so you know,

I will not be going tomorrow. The incident that took place has dampened my mood to attend the gathering at I's. Besides, I won't be able to join the group anyways as I have class at eight tomorrow night - all the more reason not to go, no? Tutorial, yes, but important nonetheless as midterm is just around the corner.

I know I'd probably envy the pictures that will be posted up after but that is something I must live with, now that I've made the decision to stay. I'm sorry, people. I'm even more sorry for myself, really.

oo well.

"...nanti takde kawan", you said. But that's okay, because surely true friends stick with you even though you can be quite an arse and (almost) never join them for gatherings because you usually can't but that's okay, if they choose to leave, then you'll just have to bear with it. Nak buat macam mana kan. *cue Bad Day song, it should be played all week. Heh.



Suppose I'll go swimming instead. Aha! There's the silver lining to this cloud.


Positive energy is what I need right now, but what I seem to lack most.

Tagged by Alya Fathi

Bold fonts are for the things that are true, italic for the things that's about to be done and the normal fonts are for the ones I seem to care less, and the likes.


I miss somebody right now
I don't watch TV these days
I own lots of books
I wear glasses or contact lenses
I love to play video games
I've tried marijuana
I have been in a threesome
I have been the psycho-ex in past relationships
I believe honesty is usually the best policy
I curse sometimes
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
I have changed a lot mentally over the year
I am totally smart (looking) muahahha kidding :p
I've broken someone's bone
I'm paranoid sometimes
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free
I need money right now
I love sushi
I talk really, really fast
I have long hair
I have lost money in Las Vegas
I have at least one sibling
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look
I am usually pessimistic
I have a lot of mood swings
I have hidden talent
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
I have a lot of friends
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex
I enjoy talking on the phone
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
I love to shop
I enjoy window shopping
I would rather shop than eat
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them (like very much haha)
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
I have a cell phone
I believe in God

I watch MTV on daily basis
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
I've rejected someone before
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
I want to have children in the future
I have changed a diaper before
I've called the cops on a friend before
I'm not allergic to anything
I have a lot to learn
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger
I am shy around the opposite sex
I have tried alcohol before
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past
I own the South Park movie
I would die for my bestfriends
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
I have used my sexuality to advance my career
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
I have dated a close friend's ex
I am happy at this moment
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the times
I tie my shoelace differently from anyone I've ever met
I am comfortable with who I am right now
I have more than just my ears pierced
I walk barefoot wherever I can
I have jumped off a bridge
I love sea turtles
I spend ridiculous money on makeup
I plan on achieving major goal/dream
I'm proficient in a musical instrument
I worked at McDonald's restaurant
I hate office jobs
I love sci-fi movies
I think water rules
I went to college out of state
I like sausage
I love kisses
I fall for the worst people
I adore bright colors
I cant live without black eyeliner
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing
I usually like covers better than the originals
I can pick up things with my toes
I can't whistle
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake slither
I have ridden a horse
I still have every journal that I've ever written in
I can't stick to a diet
I talk in my sleep
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time
I have jazz in my blood
I wear a toe ring
I have a tattoo
I can't stand at least one person that I'm studying with
I am a caffeine junkie
I have been to over 15 conventions
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better
I'm an artist
I only clean my room when necessary
I like a person of the same sex
I love being happpppppyyyy !
I am an adrenaline junkie


So there you go sistah. I'm outta here.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

The phone finally rang

You called! I'm happy to hear your voice again, it was worth the wait. Thank you for calling eventhough you are tired after a long and tiring day, sweetheart. Come home quick, I miss you.


Happy fifteenth, love.

Two out of three ain't bad

It's a Sunday, I'm at home, I missed No Reservations on HBO, I only studied for ten minutes and I am out of ideas.



I've been waiting for my mobile to ring but sadly, it's been quiet since yesterday. I miss you :/

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Apiq bby <3 - sebab dia mintak tulis title ni :)

Yesterday, I reached Kulliyah of Engineering in ten minutes flat and from where my hostel is located, I call that mach speed because I'm cool like that. The meet was worth the walk and I was left swooning over you ♥

The day went by as usual, with a few pinches to and from Atikah, the discovery Shazuin made while she was eating, and a lot of laughs coming from us three.

Today, I saw somebody who looked like Johnny Fantastic 4 (too lazy to google him up for his real name heh) and he would look even better if he trims a bit of his hair. Atikah, there are so many other guys who look better than that lumberjack of yours, trust me. I saw a few but this Johnny boy is the best one so far, among 'em foreigners, that is. I've my own man though thank you :)

I am now at ease wearing and walking about in the skirt I've kept for so long in the closet and I learned how to wrap my talhah nicely like 'em Arabs, no thanks to Wawi :P

Tomorrow, my earliest and only class will be at 3.30 in the evening as the rest of my classes have been canceled due to unknown reasons, which is, good. Although it means I don't have to wake up at six, I still have to go to the main building for lunch and possibly to do some revision as I am very bad at focusing when I am in my room. It's shortlived, sadly.

It's time to pick up the pace, girl.



Even though I am not a total gamer of sorts, I want a PSP because I don't like borrowing from others, can?

Friday, January 16, 2009

-.-

I've been feeling like crap lately and I don't really know why although I'm pretty sure it's because of the thumbdrive incident and such. Or it could just be that time of month. Lepas tu rasa fed up sangat dengan orang. Dengan 'kawan', kononnya. Entahlah.

So the water's back in Gombak and I'm home again, for the nth time. Surprisingly, I come home more often now since I started in Gombak. Big change there my friend.

I've to study for two quizzes, do one research paper and a case study/presentation and I have not started on anything. Not to mention the amount of Math I must do since I'm not so good in that field. Buggahhh.

French class was nice and although they were a wee bit slow, I suppose the instructor can compensate for it.


I feel dizzy, hungry and about to snap. Bye.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

The Wishlist

This is for Ramblings, who personally suggested that I write this now ;) My birthday is about a month away so I think this is the most appropriate time to dwell on the things I want (or need) and compile them into a wishlist but of course, wishlists can go on and on and on...


The Wishlist

Shafiqqqqq
Birthday wishes
A day (or dinner) with you
An emotional problem-free day, please?
A slim body :/
Moneyyy
Good grades all year!
Good foooooood x)

I wantwantwantwant...

Black FCUK Croc/Snake Skin Belt - ask me ;p
Oversized White Shirts (possibily men's, size M)
Black & White Silk/Crepe ARZU Tarhah (Tudung lilit)
Old Pink Polka/Boho ARZU Tarhah
Body Shop White Musk Set/Gift Set
New pair of jeans
MAC Eye Kohl in Teddy (colour)
Flat/Ballet Pumps
Black Tangs STUDIO T-Bar Flats w/ Diamantes
Black ALDO Gladiator Sandals
Navy Blue ZARA Long Cardigan
Ipod mihahaha
More shirts !
Playfirst Cooking Dash Game !!


I need...
A thumbdrive - I lost mine last week :/
A hard disk as well
A watch?



That sums up this year's wishlist really, took me a while to think of the things haha. Well, if I could get at least the top three things, I'd be the happiest girl already.


Au revior.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Fill me in

Welcome back, people. I apologize for the sudden change but recent events led to this and I think it's high time I explain myself, just in case any one of you are still wondering. Oh, and I'd also like to thank you all for responding ever so quickly, I appreciate it very much.

Anywaaaaay...

Last Saturday while I was having breakfast, Mum forwarded me a text message her friend sent her (let's call her Aunt Z). Aunt Z wrote that her little son googled her name and that there were two results; one in her old yearbook and another one in - wait for it - MY BLOG (read: here). Surprise surprise. She read through and commented that I write the way I talk and it's like (quoted) "Alyaa live in person". I was afraid that Mum read my blog as well but thank goodness Mum is not so tech savvy. If not, I DIE DIE DIE.

Suppose I do have a couple of things here that I do not want my mother to read but seriously, who in the world wants their mothers to read their blogs when it is full of rants/party pictures and what not, you know what I mean? Niksu, you're excluded ;)

It was quite a scare so I called Shafiq and he took care of it. Of course, I was also patronized along the way, on both sides, this including my Mum as she feels that it is better left private. Honestly, she was more afraid I was dissing Aunty Z LOL.

Little drama aside, last week was not the best I've had. Four days of agonizing emotional episodes, complete with snubs and lectures. Come Saturday and I was good to go, as I met up with Ramblings after so long, it was good to see the little lady again. Spent the rest of my weekend in the library searching for the contents for my presentation, which I delivered pretty well, if I may say so. I still have to dig deeper for my research paper though and so far, I've only checked on two books.

As for this week, little things surprised me and feelings changed. Three boys disagreed with me as opposed to the rest of them who find that the new kid on the block is the it girl while I got over the phase and moved on, which was, a good thing. Role-plays took place, a lot of ground was covered and I am alright.

Please pardon the mundaneness but I am lacking of ideas and I am writing this is my class. Till then, turrah.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

The reason why

I don't think I like you anymore.

I think it's because I don't like the way you look at (space).


Menyampah.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Por Una Cabeza

CLICK PLAY AND WATCH :D WATCH !




I just love this song so much I want to hear on loop! I mean, I can fall asleep listening to this, it's so soothing and romantic. GAGAGA. BUT. Sadly, I'm not at home so the wireless connection sorta stink right here right now.

This song is entitled "Por Una Cabeza" and has been in a few movies as the soundtrack; Tango Bar (1935), Scent of a Woman (1992), Schindler's List (1993), True Lies (1994); and it is LOVEEE. The music was written by Carlos Gardel and I particularly love the arrangement in True Lies. And the moves! TO DIEEEEEE !!! *dies*

SOOOOOOO.....

If any of you find a better arrangement than this please let me know. Or if you have THIS PARTICULAR SONG IN THIS ARRAGNGEMENT even!!! Please please, kindly let me know :D

I wish I could dance to this sighh. Sa-woon ~

Secret smiles

Some days can just catch you by surprise, you just never know what it has in store for you. Today has been a pretty good day; I was comfortable and confident with myself and I am happy.

Even though I felt like I didn't deserve it and I'm not so good dealing with it, thank you. Your simple words made my day.



Sometimes surprises can be good.

Friday, January 2, 2009

This one's for you

The first day went off really well as we covered a lot of ground, filled our tummies with glorious food and had the pleasure of being with each other. Compliments were given and received unexpectedly as the day passed, surprising us both, if not me (more) and kept us smiling all day long.

New goodies were bought and money was spent but all was not lost, we were happy men. We talked till the wee hours, sharing both told and untold stories of ourselves, keeping each other company until it was time to say good night.

It might sound silly, but the little things in life matters just a much as the big ones and you made me feel like I'm the only one.

I am blessed to have you and I am truly happy.

Thank you for the wonderful day.