I lost my confidence along the way

Shafiq says my new (chinese) name is ACOI - Alyaa's Conflict Of Interest. Haaa boleh tak budak ni orang tengah serious emotional talk dia come up with this term pulak dah fufufu. Anyhoo, had another talk with mum and boyfriend and is still considering the pros and cons.

The question is, what do I want?

I don't want to do CS just to prove a point because people think that IT is the easiest - well ramai je I know you thought about it even if you don't say it foo! - but why should I do it because of that? Sure the subjects sounded cool. And then there's IT.

I don't need to list down the reasons why, not here anyway. Haih.

I can do both, wherever I am placed. But will I be happy with my choice? Will I enjoy what I'm doing? Will it benefit me? Key questions key questions people.

And then there's the scholarship, if I can get one, that is. Get my pointers up first and then we'll think of that. I have a bad feeling, wait, I already know that my pointer is going to drop this semester because of my ICO paper so I am bracing myself for the worst yet.

It's 11.46pm and I am hungry. I fasted and only had three karipap for buka. Haaaa lapaqqq dah niiiii.