The sun lits up the room

I feel good today :)

I had a good, crazy sort of dream where I beat a person up into a pulp and then I got myself a new item. Things will be good today, no?

There's no reason for it to go bad.



Good day everyone :)

The Glitter Phoenix Burns Again

I won't compose prose every morning you open your eyes next to me (I won't compare you to a summer's day).

I won't kiss the tears from your cheeks whenever you cry.

I won't remember every appointment.

I won't keep the sheen on my armour.

I won't know what to say sometimes.

I won't get your order right.

I'll be late.

I'll fuck-up.

But I'll write something for you when you least expect it (in summer or winter).

But I'll hold you as tight as I can whenever I can.

But I'll burst through the door as soon as I remember.

But I'll polish it until it shines again.

But I'll say something anyway.

But I'll go back and make it right.

But I'll get there.

But I'll try.

(via I Wrote This For You)




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But really, would you?

Je deteste!

I don't f(!) care alright. I don't care. I don't want to know.

Why were you so excited anyway? So what? So?

If I do that to you I know you wouldn't like it too.

Like, whatever.

This is how I feel.

This is what I am feeling.

It does not change anything. I had my say so now I'll just leave it be. There is nothing for me to do. I won't do anything. I won't go around caring. Like, whatever. It doesn't hurt anyone else pun.

You don't have to understand. It's just a small detail that I am particular about.

It's just a feeling. Kan?

Don't you?

(via I Can Read)

Is this what you want?

It's like talking with the wall. You keep on talking and they never reply.

Sometimes it feels like you're the only one who cares, who makes the effort to try, to maintain such a relationship. It's like you're the only one who gives a shit and they don't really care, really.

This is not a one-way street. Relationships takes time, effort. You need to nurture it. Not simply neglecting it to rot. It will not work if only one side is trying and the other is not.

They keep on giving excuses when in reality, they just couldn't be bothered by your existence. They'll only come to you when they're in pain, in trouble or in need for someone to listen to them because nobody else wants the job. After that they'll just go about with their lives as if you were never there to begin with.


...and people (or even themselves!) wonder why they broke up or stopped being friends. Go figure.

Thanks for the memories.

I liked what we had. I still remember the times we spent on the phone talking, laughing and sharing stories every time something happy or sad happens to us. I can still remember the good old times that we shared, and of course, the bad.

There are times when I almost dialed your number to tell you the great news, or simply just to talk out of boredom. I suppose I sort of miss that.

I never quite understood what happened between us, but I'm glad we've gotten past that. Well, it was good while it lasted. Thanks for sticking around.

Screams of joy.

After twenty years of waiting (well, not exactly), my parents are finally getting a son. And I'm going to get a baby brother and I like it. It's confirmed :)

It's gonna be awesome. We'll dress him up in Baby Gap, Guess Kids, Adidas ahhh and all those cute little things. Awesome awesome surprise. Insya Allah if all goes well, the baby is due mid December tee hee.


&& happy Ramadhan everyone!

xx

Little things.

Today was a nice turnaround from all the days we had lately. It was simple and yet, it was special. I didn't realized how much I missed it until it happened. I miss those conversations I had with you.


Thanks for your time, love.

This is what happened.

Today, my phone line got barred. I took the cab to the station and found out that the driver is only 25 and has been doing so since four years ago.

Today, I paid my phone bill. I walked around the mall alone. I bought 8 plates of sushi for break fast. I have only one more day to qada'. I should rejoice, and be happy.


But I'm not.

Hate you

I am not you.

I will never be like you.

I am better than you will ever be.




Watch me.

The circling wheel.

You can't turn away, the past is said and done.


You hurt me real good too :(