I miss you sometimes.

:)

I'll be okay. I should be, right?

Realize

In between the funniness of it all, there lies a glimpse of sadness, hidden from the surface but felt undoubtedly.

Be calm, be better - she whispers.

The Line Is Busy

Always a slight tinge of sadness after every unanswered phone call.

Going down slow

As of late, I take things with a pinch of salt. Little things impress me, except for food, of course. Food will never fail to entice me, day in and day out. Others, however, as much as I want them to, do not.

Hmm..

In every statement, in every act, in every reaction... there will always, always be a tinge of sadness, felt.

It is the same as a broken smile, a fake smile, a forced smile complete with glassy eyes (teary eyes?) and a sobbing heart. It's inevitable.

On a different note, I'm not doing so bad. Well, I'd like to think of it that way :)

:|

It's annoying.

Question

How could one not believe in relationships but believe in love? Seriously?

So you'd love the person, go about with whoever you want because hey, you're not in a relationship. It's more like those so called open relationships. Really? Really?

You my dear, contradict yourself from time to time.

A letter for you

Hey you,

How are you? I hope you're well. I haven't heard from you in a while now. Been busy huh? Busy man, you are one. I'm at home now, been home for two days already. It's been pretty good. I made sandwiches, slept in a little longer than I had hoped and spent time with family. Boredom haven't strike in just yet - I hope this time it'll come a little bit later than usual.

There are a few things I have set out to do this holiday, all within the confined space of my abode. Not that I have a choice now, do I? I plan on jogging everyday and I will see to it that it happens and follow through. I also plan on making at least three dishes from Jamie's cookbook, which reminds me, I have yet to check on the possible recipes, by possible here I mean something which at least two of my family members will eat and made out of ingredients I can actually find.

I look forward to having Korean food and Pavlova, if I can ever convince Mum to take me, but I'll try. I have been longing for that for a long time now - you see, it's hard to find friends who would actually want to try that sort of thing because most people are simply too scared to get out of their comfort zones to try new things and are just plain boring. I don't blame them but I gotta hand it to you, it sucks sometimes because you'll end up staying in as there's really no one who's up for it. Hmm...maybe I just need to find foodie friends, like me :)

So far, for the past two days, my plan to sleep no later than midnight has failed, miserably. I will try my best to avoid it, tomorrow. My workout plan however, just kick started today. I hope I will be able to keep it up.

I sort of miss having you around. Maybe you can tell me your stories now. I would love to hear from you. I hope you're well, wherever you are.



Love,
me.

The Monsters I Miss

And every single thing you ever did that bothered me, is every single thing I miss.


(via I Wrote This For You)

Dimitri

As of today, I am no longer a P driver! Hurrah! I can't believe it's been two years since I got my license, that the period is finally over and I can drive Mama's car without that P sticker on it. Big deal. Because I failed my first exam and took the whole course all over again after one and a half years on hold; I was occupied with school.

Exams have been pretty depressing. I am quite disappointed to learn that I may not be able to get the Dean's List, yet again, this semester. I thought I was doing well, but, apparently I was not. My carry marks are less than encouraging and I fear that the final exam papers will not do much. I should really take a mental note and not repeat this feat again next semester.

Next semester will mark my third year in IIU and with 5 subjects registered, I intend to do more. I must do more, else, how will I ever graduate with first class honours? I want to make my parents proud too, it's been a while since I did. Sorry folks.

That aside, my health seems to be getting better. I can speak now, but I can't sing just yet. I have been in a pretty good mood too, despite the circumstances. The tweeties gang over at twitter really gives me a reason to smile. Despite being unable to speak or see anybody, these wonderful group of people have kept me company the entire time. Thank you gang, I appreciate it dearly :)

It's almost four now and my eyes are wide open. I must try to force myself to sleep now lest I'll be cranky in the morning when I have to wake up.

I hope to see you again before my holidays, it would be really nice if I could.



Love,
me.

Omelette du fromage

I've been tweeting a lot these days, with a bunch of new people I hardly know and yet I feel like I've known them forever; a crazy (good kind of way hehe) and funny bunch that gives me the breath of fresh air that I desperately need. They're nice and they call me Oreo, which they got off my twitter username. I have to admit, it brings back memories to the times when the gang actually called me that. Those were sweet memories, when we all had nicknames and had a laugh out of everything, every single time. I kind of miss that, y'know?

But evidently, as of all things, we grew out of that phase, morphed into different people, hopefully for the better and things were not always as sweet as they once were. I still love them, no matter how much they piss me off because, we're family and that's what families do, they put up with each other.

I don't see much of them these days, with final exams and last minute studying and it made me miss them very much, and hurts me every time they're out and about and well, I'm the only who's not invited.

My exams end this Saturday and after that I'll be seeing Ramblings, finally. I've missed her so, and I cannot wait for our long conversation and catching up session. We are both in dire need of that. I'm looking forward to go home too. I miss every one of them lot - Mama, Abah, Faiqah, Amani, Izzati and of course my dearest Rawsyad. I could really use some quality time, away from the people and things that upset me.

I hope you're well, wherever you are. I miss you sometimes.

Sore throat

Hi, I've been gone for a while. Did you miss me? I doubt that. Currently having my final exams so I'll be back after, I hope. I kind of missed you too.

I hope you're doing well, wherever you are.


Love,
me.