Where should I start? There's so much I want to say that I don't know where to begin. Too many important events took place this week. Sigh. School and personal activities has kept me away from this for quite some time now. I suppose I should start at the very beginning. This past week has been nothing but interesting, filled with both joy and sadness all at the same time.
Up until Friday, I spent most of my time in the library, frantically doing some last minute studying, staying up till late and ordering Mc Donalds both in the morning and late at night. I had little sleep and I am back to my old ways, I could not control myself but bite my nails until I could bite 'em no more. My Maths III papers went, surprisingly, pretty smooth and Programming was tougher than I thought, although you could say that I didn't read enough. My course work marks for both subjects were seemingly well; I've improved, although slightly, at Math and managed to get a good one with Programming, scoring a modest 52/60. I am happy for that and I hope that my finals would help me get the grades I want.
Saturday was spent with sleeping in, meeting new and old faces at my aunt's and finishing the mystery game I started earlier that week. As for Sunday, Wawi and I went out with the boys - Teth, Aqim and Ali - to One Utama, had lunched, walked around and got lost finding our car. Turns out we went down the wrong way. All of us - Shafiq, Zhaf, Alan, Wawi, Teth, Aqim, Ali, Sabah and yours truly - left for Barneyy's around five and had a jolly time meeting her family, Nad and some others. I could only wish for the drive back to never end, I wanted so much to have them with me and not let go of that hand. Sadly, as all things, it came to an end as we approach our building, bid adieu again and again and waved the last goodbye till the car was out of sight. Sure, big deal. Right? Wrong. Going back home would mean staying in for two whole months and not meet up with the gang, especially him. It means staying inside and watching every pass me by, one by one. Sigh. I'm trying not to be so emotional about it as I was before but I just can't help myself.
Most of my friends have already gone back (Teth, Aqim, Sabah, Ali, Barneyy, Shafiq, Mirawr, Wawa, Aifaa etc) leaving me and Wawi here in old quiet empty Uia. I was pretty upset about saying goodbye, as all goodbyes make me go all soppy and emotional. Barneyy will be leaving for Kuantan next semester, so god knows when I'll see her again. Boo. That aside, I am finally done with my foundations, meaning, I'll be starting next semester in Gombak. Hurray! I have no intention of changing to Law though; I can always study for that later, if I want to. Right now, I just want to get this done. I'm pretty excited about starting next semester; most of my friends are there, the rules won't be as strict (hopefully, or so I heard) and I'll have more freedom to go about. It's a whole new game this time around :)
On a different and sad note, my cat just died last night. She was a Japanese Bobtail and we called her Snow, a typical name coined up due to her white coat. After six years of living under our roof, she passed away, possibly while resting outside our house. My sisters found her lying on the floor, with her eyes and mouth open, not breathing or moving and still warm. They called me soon after and buried her in our backyard. About a week earlier, I received a call from them telling me that Snow went missing (but they found her later in the evening that very day) and that she fell sick and lost her appetite. They said she wouldn't even go inside the house anymore. It was pretty sudden for us, as she was healthy when we sent her to the vet and even before I left for school two weeks ago. Her health grew worse, as she sight and hearing deteriorated. Mum even felt sorry for her; she petted her and fed her her favourite food - chicken. When I met the girls on Saturday and my aunt's place, I thought I could still her for one last time but it seems that is out of the question now :( I cried upon receiving the terrible news because the saddest thing about it was that I was too late. If only I had gone home sooner, I would've been able to see her before she died, even if she didn't know who I was anymore. Knowing that and knowing that she is no longer with us saddens us all. I gave Mum a call ten minutes after midnight (last night) to wish her birthday and she told me that it was a pain seeing Snow being sick. Once, she was sleeping under Mum's car and was about to go to the grass when she fell into the drain because she couldn't even jumped properly anymore, and that she was 'terkapai-kapai' trying to climb herself up. I try hard not to cry but I can only do so much. Heh.
To those of you who've never felt this before, you'd probably go around saying it is JUST a cat. But she's not, she was more than that. She was family. She was there and I took care of her, we all did, ever since she was a little kitten. I bathed her, fed her, played with her, talked to her even though I know she doesn't understand a single thing and loved her. Imagine that, losing something so precious when you least expected. One thing's for sure, I don't want that happening to my loved ones. I don't want to feel like I'm too late, too late to see them before they died, too late for not saying I loved them and taking them for granted. Sigh. Baru je kucing, kalau family tak tahu la macam mana nanti :/ I'm trying to look at things in a better perspective. Things will be better for all us. We're thinking of getting a new cat, just to fill the empty spot that has been there for the last six years. I love you Snow, you will be dearly missed by us all.
That sad story aside, today marks Mum's and Alyaa's (a friend I like to call twinny) birthdays. Happy birthday to you both, I love you dears dearly. I suppose that's the very end of it. I'm heading back to my room to pack the final things before Abah picks me up at three. Will get back to you later.
Love,
Alyaa.
Up until Friday, I spent most of my time in the library, frantically doing some last minute studying, staying up till late and ordering Mc Donalds both in the morning and late at night. I had little sleep and I am back to my old ways, I could not control myself but bite my nails until I could bite 'em no more. My Maths III papers went, surprisingly, pretty smooth and Programming was tougher than I thought, although you could say that I didn't read enough. My course work marks for both subjects were seemingly well; I've improved, although slightly, at Math and managed to get a good one with Programming, scoring a modest 52/60. I am happy for that and I hope that my finals would help me get the grades I want.
Saturday was spent with sleeping in, meeting new and old faces at my aunt's and finishing the mystery game I started earlier that week. As for Sunday, Wawi and I went out with the boys - Teth, Aqim and Ali - to One Utama, had lunched, walked around and got lost finding our car. Turns out we went down the wrong way. All of us - Shafiq, Zhaf, Alan, Wawi, Teth, Aqim, Ali, Sabah and yours truly - left for Barneyy's around five and had a jolly time meeting her family, Nad and some others. I could only wish for the drive back to never end, I wanted so much to have them with me and not let go of that hand. Sadly, as all things, it came to an end as we approach our building, bid adieu again and again and waved the last goodbye till the car was out of sight. Sure, big deal. Right? Wrong. Going back home would mean staying in for two whole months and not meet up with the gang, especially him. It means staying inside and watching every pass me by, one by one. Sigh. I'm trying not to be so emotional about it as I was before but I just can't help myself.
Most of my friends have already gone back (Teth, Aqim, Sabah, Ali, Barneyy, Shafiq, Mirawr, Wawa, Aifaa etc) leaving me and Wawi here in old quiet empty Uia. I was pretty upset about saying goodbye, as all goodbyes make me go all soppy and emotional. Barneyy will be leaving for Kuantan next semester, so god knows when I'll see her again. Boo. That aside, I am finally done with my foundations, meaning, I'll be starting next semester in Gombak. Hurray! I have no intention of changing to Law though; I can always study for that later, if I want to. Right now, I just want to get this done. I'm pretty excited about starting next semester; most of my friends are there, the rules won't be as strict (hopefully, or so I heard) and I'll have more freedom to go about. It's a whole new game this time around :)
On a different and sad note, my cat just died last night. She was a Japanese Bobtail and we called her Snow, a typical name coined up due to her white coat. After six years of living under our roof, she passed away, possibly while resting outside our house. My sisters found her lying on the floor, with her eyes and mouth open, not breathing or moving and still warm. They called me soon after and buried her in our backyard. About a week earlier, I received a call from them telling me that Snow went missing (but they found her later in the evening that very day) and that she fell sick and lost her appetite. They said she wouldn't even go inside the house anymore. It was pretty sudden for us, as she was healthy when we sent her to the vet and even before I left for school two weeks ago. Her health grew worse, as she sight and hearing deteriorated. Mum even felt sorry for her; she petted her and fed her her favourite food - chicken. When I met the girls on Saturday and my aunt's place, I thought I could still her for one last time but it seems that is out of the question now :( I cried upon receiving the terrible news because the saddest thing about it was that I was too late. If only I had gone home sooner, I would've been able to see her before she died, even if she didn't know who I was anymore. Knowing that and knowing that she is no longer with us saddens us all. I gave Mum a call ten minutes after midnight (last night) to wish her birthday and she told me that it was a pain seeing Snow being sick. Once, she was sleeping under Mum's car and was about to go to the grass when she fell into the drain because she couldn't even jumped properly anymore, and that she was 'terkapai-kapai' trying to climb herself up. I try hard not to cry but I can only do so much. Heh.
To those of you who've never felt this before, you'd probably go around saying it is JUST a cat. But she's not, she was more than that. She was family. She was there and I took care of her, we all did, ever since she was a little kitten. I bathed her, fed her, played with her, talked to her even though I know she doesn't understand a single thing and loved her. Imagine that, losing something so precious when you least expected. One thing's for sure, I don't want that happening to my loved ones. I don't want to feel like I'm too late, too late to see them before they died, too late for not saying I loved them and taking them for granted. Sigh. Baru je kucing, kalau family tak tahu la macam mana nanti :/ I'm trying to look at things in a better perspective. Things will be better for all us. We're thinking of getting a new cat, just to fill the empty spot that has been there for the last six years. I love you Snow, you will be dearly missed by us all.
That sad story aside, today marks Mum's and Alyaa's (a friend I like to call twinny) birthdays. Happy birthday to you both, I love you dears dearly. I suppose that's the very end of it. I'm heading back to my room to pack the final things before Abah picks me up at three. Will get back to you later.
"Well I thought I'd end off with a quiet, gentle song to send you on your way peacefully" - Sarah McLachlan
Love,
Alyaa.
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