Thursday, September 17, 2009

The Fear

Just the thought of it makes me shiver with fear, with sadness and heartache.

I am scared shitless. I don't even feel like celebrating. Long sighs could not escape me. I am haunted with negative thoughts based on all the bad experiences I've had.

I'm scared. I should be more optimistic but I can't. I'm trying but the negative outcomes are all I could think of because that's what I'm most afraid of. I'm afraid of that.

Nothing I do can calm this anxiety. I'm scared.

I don't want to end this. I can't end this. I can't lose this. I just can't.


God help me :'(

2 comments:

  1. Alyaa, cheer up ! raya dh dekat ! hehehe :)

    btw i dh send u a cute pink piglet, kasi makan cukup cukup eyy hahaha

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  2. Tapi I macam takde mood untuk raya je :/ Boo.

    A ah dah dapat dah heheh thank youuu :)) Nanti murah hati lagi la eh hantar gifts. I'll definitely send you some too ;) I nak ribbons yo ribbonssss sebab tu je boleh boost sket my coins heh.

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