Friday, July 16, 2010

Notes to Roberto

#1 If there is such a thing as a dislike button, I'd click it a hundred times and more. Because it irks me. Because you irk me.

#2 Truthfully, I like this week. It has been quite pleasant, emotional-free. I think you can guess why.

#3 I would say I'm quite flattered, only not so much.

#4 Sometimes listening to you engage in conversations regarding girls, pretty girls, sexy pretty girls, sexy pretty shallow girls and the other stuff you talk about scares me.

#5 And yes, it would be quite sad (or very sad, perhaps) if you get involved in those kinds of activities, because (somehow) I believe that you are one who keeps to his words, for most parts.

#6 It has only been a week and yet it feels like a month.

#7 I really want/need a new bag. I have my eyes on a Charles & Keith but Mum said the quality's bad and I would only be wasting my money away. Butbutbut.

#8 You're right, I do go after people. People here means boys. I rather like a person than have that person like me (in THAT manner) because then I wouldn't have to turn them down or brush them off. I'm not the kind who likes that kind of attention, unlike some people who simply adoressssss being adored, the chase and all... unless it is from a guy whom I like then that's a different story altogether (of course it would be great if the guy that I fancy fancies me too duh!).

#9 I'm just not interested. I'm not willing, or ready, to give my heart out to anyone. I'm not even sure if I ever got it back.

#10 Wouldn't it be nice if you could have things your way?

#11 I wish you could just disappear. Please, just leave.

#12 I don't want to answer your tricky questions because I know you know the answer and because answering it won't make any difference. I wouldn't want to lie (or maybe, I should) because you know me well enough if I do and lying to you just doesn't seem to be how I roll so I always end up telling the truth. But you see, it makes no difference, so why bother.

#13 I can't help but think that I am one of those stupid girls. I know I was, once, but tell me, am I now? I'm afraid to find out the truth but I (think I) know the answer. Knowing it doesn't make it any less scary, and sad. What I am sure about is that is not the cause of why I feel the way I do, because it is more than that. It has always been more than that. I just don't know what's the case with you.

#14 If I could be granted a wish I want to know everything that I don't know, everything that is hidden from me. Or maybe I want to have the ability to know secrets from people, or if they're lying and ooh! to know what they're thinking. The last ability could be a bit scary and backfire on me and hurt me... but it frustrates me how much I want to know things but I am not able to. So yes, genie please find me.

#15 You're different now.

#16 I miss you.



Love,
me.

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