Killjoy

She puts her hands over her face, she could feel herself tremble as she quietly breathe out a heavy sigh. It's late. Temperature's rising, she made her way downstairs, careful with her steps to the piano and took her little book and ran upstairs. She carefully wrote underneath the dim light, holding back every tear no matter how much she wanted to let it out. She wrote and wrote, with such sadness, anger and hurt. Such emotions.


Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?


Flat on the floor, she stared into space, her head filled with thoughts, words and tears. She could not let it out nor tell anyone. Who were you talking to anyway? Guess you're alone in the end. Alone. Alone. Alone. She could not shut her eyes even if she tried.


Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game


She looked at the clock, ten minutes past midnight. 26th, again, they are FIVE now. After a long shower, she stepped out feeling better, physically and started writing again, this time, with her faithful companion. And still, she could not shut her eyes as she recalled the incident, again and again, and again.




Don't bother, it doesn't change anything.






;; A Beautiful Lie - 30 Seconds To Mars.