The notebook

I like notebooks, pretty notebooks with pretty cute covers and pretty lines that I can fill up with my thoughts and imagination. But it doesn't necessarily mean that I will or have to fill every page of it. Well, sometimes I like to leave it empty, a blank, as if I might just need them one day, to write something important. Heh.

I'm a sucker for notebooks. To prove that, I just bought myself, (well technically Mama paid them all) three pretty notebooks yesterday. Yay me. I was searching for the Azone black book that I've always wanted - it's just a simple notebook like the usual ones I always buy except the cover and paper's all black - when I saw these pretty notebooks like the long exercise books we used to use in school, all stacked up on the shelf. Honestly, they were, they were pretty, with prety covers - of kids, sceneries, i.love.yous, colours, sketches - and simple lines that it reminded me of school and of the exercise books that they use in the movie Madeline. Ah yes, my memory goes a long way back to when that movie was my favourite and I remember saying how nice it is to have such a simple book as that. Okay enough flashbacks.

Story was, Mama, Adik and I went to MPH at Great Eastern Mall, GE Mall for short, with the intention to buy some books and use up our RM120 book voucher. Unfortunately for us, we didn't clearly comprehend that it was a BOOK voucher, which means you can only use it for books, until we were about to pay and the lady said "Oh, ini untuk buku je". Ah yes, all the stationary worth of about, say a hundred bucks had to be paid in CASH. Ignorance is not so bliss. How stupid of us to not realise that it was a BOOK VOUCHER. Oh well, not all is lost, Ma paid for the stationaries, our lucky day I supposed :) Well, want to know what cost so much, well let's see what we bought (I bought for myself then end up buying for the girls too in case they want what I had and we do not want that now do we):

3 Azone Black Book 11.55

4 Notebooks/exercise books 3.60

3 Pilot pens 4.90

5 Pilot metalic pens 3.20

1 Sticker 2.50

&& some other stuff for the little one.

So yeah, quite a number of items there ey but I was trying to be fair, I mean, if the girls lament about not getting their share of stuff then that'd just be, horrid. A problem for me as I can't tolerate such nonsense from these two, the long faces and thick lips. Well, that's another story.

Everyone was happy, us girls that is. I guess Shafiq's right, I do have a lot of notebooks :)

Moving on, today I managed to wake up late, yet again. You see, I'm not doing so well with this weight thing. Agh. But I did and still am, controlling my food intake. I had sandwiches today, for late breakfast, lunch and dinner respectively. I'm better off having small meals than big meals because I know I'll get hungry and munch away after a while. And I did a few sit ups and stuff like that, no, no jog this evening ladies and gents and it rained. No, not a drizzle yeh.

Ghost Rider did not fulfill my uh, expectations. Something is missing, it lacks adventure, action if I may be so bold to point it out, which in this case, I am.

Right.

Everytime I talk about with someone, or anyone for that matter, I get all emotional, my chest and breathing all heavy, like there's something stuck and I can't get it out it's overwhelming. I don't like talking about it, it makes me go down down down. Yeah. It does. I try not to let it, but I am not all that strong. It's not something I asked for, it's something that they set for me, that I must obey. Please don't ask me why, or try to change it. I know them and I know me, and there's a lot more I have to do, that I must prove before I am granted with such freedom. Maybe you will understand, maybe you never will.