I am a wreck. Well, I feel like one. No, it's not about the previous post. Ape ape la. I don't wanna talk about that, it's unimportant.
I feel really crappy right now, really really crappy. Like only crying or screaming hysterically would make me less crappy, or so I think. So I'm here now, in Uia. It was really quiet when I got here yesterday. I was kinda lonely really, sleeping alone and playing Sudoku till late, ALONE. They're here now, my friends. But still, it's not the same. The Arts students are in Nilai now and it feels so empty, even though (I think) most of the students are already back, it feels odd, quiet, empty. Maybe it's just me. Maybe. Maybe that's just the reason that made me text all my other friends there this morning after I woke up, saying how I miss them and not to forget us who are still here. God knows when we'll meet again. So yeah, I am being emotional, feeding on my emotions.
I went to Jaya and had lunch, ALONE. Met Zhaf at Ukc1 after, was glad to see him :) I haven't seen that lackshit for a good three (or maybe four!) good weeks now. So yeah, pasti gembira lah kan. Afi came later in the evening. Shafiq came late (gaaahhh!), felt a lil crappy about that but I'm okay now. The three of us had dinner at Aroma, it was okay. Zhaf couldn't join us, something came up. We bumped into Nazriq at Aroma or he bumped into us whichever which and he joined us for a couple of minutes, which apparently, those few minutes, changed my mode, completely. Note: I was already feeling crappy. Very emotional. He said something about the results, changing courses etc you get the idea. So yeah. It got me thinking about it again. Thinking about it makes me nervous, scared, sad, emotional. About leaving and doing Law and not being here and not getting to do Law. Ughhh. Either way, I lose. Both with its own pros and cons. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
EMOSI !
You couldn't possibly understand. I don't expect you to.
Perhaps it's time I cry now. Yeah. Perhaps I should. Let it out. Let it out. Let it out.
I am, officially, emotionally drained.
Sigh :(
I feel really crappy right now, really really crappy. Like only crying or screaming hysterically would make me less crappy, or so I think. So I'm here now, in Uia. It was really quiet when I got here yesterday. I was kinda lonely really, sleeping alone and playing Sudoku till late, ALONE. They're here now, my friends. But still, it's not the same. The Arts students are in Nilai now and it feels so empty, even though (I think) most of the students are already back, it feels odd, quiet, empty. Maybe it's just me. Maybe. Maybe that's just the reason that made me text all my other friends there this morning after I woke up, saying how I miss them and not to forget us who are still here. God knows when we'll meet again. So yeah, I am being emotional, feeding on my emotions.
I went to Jaya and had lunch, ALONE. Met Zhaf at Ukc1 after, was glad to see him :) I haven't seen that lackshit for a good three (or maybe four!) good weeks now. So yeah, pasti gembira lah kan. Afi came later in the evening. Shafiq came late (gaaahhh!), felt a lil crappy about that but I'm okay now. The three of us had dinner at Aroma, it was okay. Zhaf couldn't join us, something came up. We bumped into Nazriq at Aroma or he bumped into us whichever which and he joined us for a couple of minutes, which apparently, those few minutes, changed my mode, completely. Note: I was already feeling crappy. Very emotional. He said something about the results, changing courses etc you get the idea. So yeah. It got me thinking about it again. Thinking about it makes me nervous, scared, sad, emotional. About leaving and doing Law and not being here and not getting to do Law. Ughhh. Either way, I lose. Both with its own pros and cons. Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
EMOSI !
You couldn't possibly understand. I don't expect you to.
Perhaps it's time I cry now. Yeah. Perhaps I should. Let it out. Let it out. Let it out.
I am, officially, emotionally drained.
Sigh :(
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